and all thru my being not a fantasy was stirring my cock was for peeing. i shook it twice thought "how nice". then let it go without a thrice. for it was the night before christmas and i abstain. to wank not, to escape not. but stay and be. i value my jing, i value my chi. for the child in me needs the present, needs the gift of me. i father, i mother, we make three.