Understanding emotions through practising meditation

I am on a 22-day streak today. The one thing that hurts my streak the most is rubbing my wood on fantasies and the normal Google images (not NSFW). I usually do this while lying in bed. I disabled chrome on my cell phone and downloaded the SPIN browser. I can avoid Twitter and Instagram on it but not Google images. But then something struck me: how long can I avoid all of this using blockers? There would eventually be a day when I purge my balls and then go into depression for having done so. I thought: why not look into understanding these urges? Why do I get urges? Where do I get them from? How do I avoid them? And tons of different Qs. When answering these Qs, I concluded that I can never avoid these urges. They are there because they have to be there. Even women have them (I guess more than men but they have the discipline to control'em). If we men have testosterone then they have got estrogen. So do I control'em or succumb to them? As it turns out, there's another way out. This way is about learning to understand what the underlying emotions are, and what can I do to trespass them. Meditation for me is about letting all the thoughts come in, letting them through, and then reverting back to breathing slowly and gradually. For me, it's about doing that repeatedly so that I can get into the practice of understanding my thoughts even when I am not meditating and am in a high-performance zone e.g. my office. This is what I am doing after writing this report/journal. It has been a revolutionary period for me: understanding that these thoughts are transcendental. Now I can either learn to accept them happily (and find a way out to without-nut-clarity) or give them away to get post-nut-clarity (which is very frustrating in the long term and only leads to worse things like binge-watching).