Update about Pornography addiction

Dvs123

Dvs123

Fapstronaut
Hey, I haven’t posted here in a long time, 3 months, since then I had my ups and downs, I think I said in my last post that I got aroused by gay porn, what I mean by that I mean a groinal response a sweilling sensation and a lot of anxiety, I almost got aroused once but I really have to push myself but unfortunately I still get aroused with some heavy stuff, like zoofilia and rape porn, even porn with women that resemble little girls to be honest gay porn is the least arousing category of porn maybe because im not comfortable watching it, anyways, I just wanted to ask, if porn can influenciate your arousal to, real things real girls, I get easily aroused sometimes but there are times that it wont go, I have ocd, many thems not only sexual ones, but you think anxiety influenciates it, I mean when Im doing a compulsion with gay pornography it feels im gonna get aroused but I can’t only once a semi, and well I dont like but I keep doing it, can you guys help?
 
If you are still viewing things these urges will be strong and drive you towards the next more extreme thing. After abstaining for a time this will eventually start to fade away, not without some hard times during the first stages.
 
I try, but it’s almost beyond me, the intrusive thoughts the anxiety, the compulsions, the small groinal responses, they drive me nuts, when I watch that kind of porn the level of stress and anxiety is excruciating maybe thats why i feel it a little, fir example, when I think about women the arousal is nice and smooth when o think about men im struck by fear, now i gotta look to overly feminine dressed like women (boobs and all) imagine them with vaginas expecting to not be aroused and when I am i claim defeat, its crazy and idiotic almost
 
I would say until you get to where you are ready to stay away from porn, this is not going to calm down for you.
 
Yeah, I should, I should go out for girls, cause i know deep down thats what i like but even then what if im lying to myself, I had dreams and all about this, and i know its common but even then im worried once i had a dream just before waking up two guy laid down on eachother, when i checked my underwear i had a little bit of pre cum, once i had a dream about my mom a very graphic one and i woke up with more than pre cum am i just a pervert?
 
Try not to think too badly of yourself. Porn has messed with your brain and keeps searching for the next most extreme thing to get more of what it wants
 
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