Wow! It’s been a little while since I’ve been on here. So, if you aren’t familiar with my previous posts, I’m 17 and I was addicted to transwoman/sissy porn for a while. About a year ago, I decided it was time to change, but it wasn’t as easy as I thought it would be. When I first tried to quit, I quickly realized that I had been watching she male and sissy porn for such a long time, that I couldn’t get hard to regular porn anymore. During the summer of last year I struggled a lot with anxiety, depression, and loneliness. I found myself going back to porn every time I felt down about myself. Then I found nofap at the beginning of this year. Nofap has helped fuel the fire for my recovery. All of you guys have been so supportive and helpful. So, this is where I’m at right now: I haven’t watch porn in months (3-4 months probably). I don’t think about it anymore. It doesn’t hold power over me. I am yet to go 90 days without masturbation, but I’m working on it. I also don’t feel the need to masturbate excessively anymore, so when I masturbate after a streak of nofap, it doesnt feel like a relapse. I have a job now, and things finally starting to get back to normal as far as the whole pandemic thing goes, which means I can get back out on the field to play soccer. I started talking to a girl a little while too. I asked her to hang out sometime this summer and she said she wanted to, which was a big win for me. I feel like I’m finally gaining control of my life. The demons are still there, but they aren’t bothering me like they were before. I feel the best that I have felt in a while, and that’s all thanks to you guys here on nofap.
I'm happy your recovery is going well. I have a question if you don't mind. While I feel the desire to look at porn lessen, I find myself bombarded with thoughts of a fetish I picked up when I indulged in PMO. Though our fetishes different, I assume the intoxication is relatively similar, you said the demons are still there so did you get used to them or have the voices gotten weaker. Also, how have you been dealing with the thoughts of your fantasies? I think it's probably hard to heal if thoughts of my fetish keep popping up in my brain. I'm trying meditation but it hasn't helped much
Hey man, when I said the demons are still there, I meant sometimes I have the urges and I also get dreams, but they are nowhere near as bad as they were before.
