Hello brothers, this is my first post here. I am soon to be 23 yo guy that had some nasty porn and fetishes past as many of you. I have heard about the idea of nofap some 2-3 years ago and bought into it quite quickly, not with all my will though - say I was masturbating 2-3 times a week on average (every time I came home from uni for weekend, I was as a clockwork machine - saw the tablet on the table aand i got aroused). It was year ago I decided to really hit it hard and stop watching porn for good because of the fact that I realized was am objectifying women everywhere I went and my gf started to notice and obviously it was hurting her. Now me and my gf been together for around 2 and half year. So it was a year ago when I started realizing how I spoiled our relationship with my porn addiction and other things related to that. So I can tell that I have successfully stopped jerking off - whether on porn or on fantasies/pics, removed instagram etc. What I really struggle with is the checking out other girls and creating those fantasies. Well, to be accurate I managed to reduce it and train myself to lower my gaze or look somewhere else when I notice a girl but the problem is that I feel this really big urge to seduce a woman that notices me. I feel as it is my duty. I dont understand why. I‘ve never cheated on my girlfriend and I don't want to but I feel as a looser when I don’t “play the opportunity”. I think it may be useful to mention that until my 20s I was really struggling with women and sex. I couldn’t get laid - first time it was with the girl i didn’t really liked and i kind of lowered myself to that, then i slept with four hookers (not at once lol). I have always fighted with my opinon on myself that I am not masculine enough and I cannot attract women I regard as beautiful (more like goddesses tba). Then, in my 20s I got into some self help psychology stuff, results from working out came and my perspective on me and women around changed. Immediately I felt I can flirt with any woman without worrying about the outcome. It was really fun and egoboost. I did that for some time but as if gods wanted to give me a lecture I started something with the girl I had known for some time then. Very pretty girl, worked out and also the good relationship material. I was sometimes lusting for her. She had a boyfriend who I knew but he was neglecting her and of course I did not have any boundaries then so I acted. It worked. Now, this girl is my gf. I have fallen in love with her very quickly. It is my first real love. It was like a one bright ray in my dark existence of loneliness, loveless sex and pickups. The honeymoon period ended, however, and I started noticing other women again. Due to that I was kind of neglecting her as well, she put on some weight and got into depression. So now I am with a girl that I am not physically attracted to so much anymore but I still want to make things right. Over the relationship I became less ignorant and now I believe we belong together a can have nice future where she will be in the center of my attention. I know my post could be shorter but i want to share my experience lively. Now my guess is that I am still living my vow I’ve made to myself that no woman is unattainable to me. I know this sounds cocky and I admit that I became cocky at that time but the truth is somewhere deep down I am still living this value. I guess i still don’t love myself unconditionally. I would be glad if you share your perspective on this or maybe an similar experience so I can get some inspiration what direction to go to sort out my issue. Thanks and sorry for long (maybe boring) reading. Wish you all great progress in your lives!