Utterly lost, suicide thoughts

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  1. CAKCy

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    Have you had professional health treatment to deal with your anxiety? I found out, the hard way, that a small dosage of benzos goes a long way in stopping an overactive mind from thinking too much or spiraling deeper and deeper.
     
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  2. greenishmoon

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    Like with pills? I took for something like two years back when I was 16/18 but no symptom ever stopped. My therapist encouraged me to do it since I was depressed but I didn't do it out of mistrust.
     
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  3. CAKCy

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    May I ask what kind of pills? Anti-depressants are not the same as pills against anxiety.
     
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  4. Kung_fu_panda_

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    What is the difference between anxiety and depression?
     
  5. CAKCy

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    In an oversimplified answer... Depression is what makes one "flat". Losing interest in everything around one. Anxiety on the other hand is what makes one go wild with negative thoughts. Fear, stress, deep emotions over imaginary potential events.

    As I said... The above is an OVERSIMPLIFIED answer (and from a non-professional but a patient of both depression and anxiety).
     
  6. Kung_fu_panda_

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    If the person have both situations then?
     
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  7. CAKCy

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    Then one has a comorbid condition that needs to be treated differently than anxiety or depression on their own.
     
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  9. Kung_fu_panda_

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    I am suffering such situations...
     
  10. greenishmoon

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    I am fucking mad at hoy my therapists deny to give me even such a simple explanation.

    Their saying come and go, one of them gave me three kind of pills (for depression allegedly, they were "sertralina" in spanish, that's the one I remember the most), the one after that took off them saying that I didn't need them.
    Then I've been recommended to start again TWO times. Right now I have a job that I want to keep but I am screaming from my lungs to get a grip of it and release tension. I am no longer depressed but I live about to explode at any minute.

    Oh and the same one told me I didn't need them and then after some time that I should think about it so I'm really confused.
     
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  11. greenishmoon

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    Bro this did nothing years ago but I am reconsidering talking to a psychiatrist. What's your experience?.
    I fear feeling my body weak again, and I fear to be asleep and damaging my brain and body with them.
     
  12. CAKCy

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    It sounds very much like anxiety to me and you should be treated for it. I found comfort in a very low dosage of benzodiazepines but you better have a word with another therapist and explain to them your condition as you do it here. I hope your job does not involve using machinery. They tend to make you a bit sleepy (depending on the dosage) AND they ARE addictive. Whatever dosage your therapist might suggest (and depending on the pill as some are way more potent than others) I would start with no more than 1/2mg (diazepam) and see how that goes. It takes about 30-45 minutes to start acting and then you have to take it every day at the same time. If you do only 1/2mg (diazepam) you can take it whenever you feel the tension rising (but only ONCE a day) and you can skip taking it with no major withdrawal symptoms.

    I can give you more information if you get a prescription from your therapist.
     
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  13. CAKCy

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    Go to a psychiatrist, get a prescription for anxiety and we'll go through it together.
     
  14. greenishmoon

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    Thanks. I've been going to psychologists for many many years but now I suspect that the reason for having so many problems was just being too fucking much worried all the time. My question is, after you took the pills, HOW is that you felt better?. You suddenly thought less?? or you worried less about stuff?. And then? How do you drop them?.
     
  15. CAKCy

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    They put my mind at ease. They slowed it down. Not too much (because of the dosage) but they helped me relax. You can say that I thought less, I panicked less, I hurt less, I spiraled less, I worried about stuff less.

    I haven't dropped them yet (actually I've been gradually increasing the dosage because the problems due to external reasons kept multiplying) but when you decide to do it you do it VERY gradually. I believe that the tapering off benzos recommended is not more than 10% per day but you could do it at a slower pace to avoid withdrawal symptoms altogether.
     
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  16. Happy Man

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    It doesn't match up, if your scared.

    I would listen to CakCy and get professional help. Something, just doesn't sound right and it won't hurt to talk to a professional therapist.

    You shouldn't feel nervious, it could be the pot. I would take CakCy advice
     
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  17. greenishmoon

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    Okay, thank you both.

    How long have you been on them?.
     
  18. CAKCy

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    Three, maybe four years. I was in depression and then shit started happening to me so I started taking those to relax. To get an idea read my story in my signature.
     
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    Practise conscious breathing.. Bring in the good energy, let out the bad. Take showers everyday, write down 3 things you're grateful for each day and compound gratitude feeling, read holy stuff... Leaving 1 addiction and going to another...if you do please consider short term.. I used benzo for exactly 2days to get my sleep and boom i never touched it again in my life....i didn't have to taper off or anything. These are serious medication...
     
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  20. greenishmoon

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    I suppose you two are talking about what I heard to be "benzodiapezines" or something. I think I never took one of those.

    Hi fellas. I've been feeling much better lately. I can't begin to explain how confused I am about everything, but some times I can drop it all and feel allright for some time and that's much more that what I had years ago.

    I am really angry in the deeps of myself. I think, why are people I know so tranquil and seem to enjoy so easily while I had to go through all of this?.
    Why am I here? How can I live today and not yesterday, when so much has happened? What's life about?.

    I feel like there's grief that was never resolved, in the words of others. Like there's no meaning in everyday life. What can I do?.


    However and I repeat, I am doing way way better. I called that psychiatrist some days ago but no one answered. I don't want to take anything and if I end up taking I'll do my best to get off them as quicly as possible, but I am in serious nervous situations sometimes and that's gotta stop.


    It's allright to just sit and enjoy little, petty stuff in life?. I have a very rich aspiration inside of me that I don't know how to fulfill. I need something bigger.
     
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