Very Afraid

Check this out: https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/are-fetishes-innate

Porn does a lot of nasty things to the brain. The very nature of it compels its viewers to look at drastically different material as time goes on. That material can venture into many fetishes, but it seems that one of the most popular stops on the porn expressway is gay/bi/sissy porn. This is understandable, since this stage of porn does an even better job of reinforcing a person's felt "need" for porn than most other genres, since it has been known to strip men of their confidence, among other things. But! You can expect these urges to dwindle down as you continue to disassociate bi/gay images with your sexual release.

 

A major proportion of P users report that their sexual tastes evolve gradually over time, and can peak to something dramatically different from their original inclinations/preferences. I'm straight, and like simple sensual stuff when if comes to having sex, but at the extreme times I've been extreme watching clips

Spoiler: EXTREME TRIGGERS DON'T OPEN IF NOT SURE

ranging from bisexual scatophilia to transgender rape,

and PMOd to it without blinking. Looking back on that I just can't understand how I could have, since I find it pretty repulsive right now.

The link that ChoromanDX posted is great to understand what's at play here. Don't worry too much about it, I can testify that those weird fetishes go away quite fast the further away you are from the last time you've watched P. The reset happens

Although one little thing about that still bothers me: the neural pathways our brains build to react to a specific visual/auditive/etc stimuli never go away. The intensity of the response gradually fades, but it doesn't take much to be reactivated. I've experienced that earlier this year myself, when having sex with my recent girlfriend, and when I let myself fantasize about her in situations that very quickly started resembling typical P situations. It escalated so quickly I got a little scared, and mad at myself at the same time: wasn't what I had enough? Why did I wanted "more" excitation from different settings/accessories?... I guess we'll have to always be vigilant.

 

Me too ended watching things I don't even want to remember. It would be disgusting in the real life. At some point regular porn wasn't working anymore for me.