I keep relapsing after 2-3 days. Take out my frustrations on other brothers in recovery. Constantly considering just quitting The program altogether. I don’t even know why I’m bothering at this point. The self deprecating thoughts and behaviors are what brought me to try and find recovery. Sometimes I’m not even sure I want to stay sober and find recovery, I keep hearing that is the addiction talking but my actions make me think that I’m only doing it to lie to myself. I don’t think I’m willing to do what it takes to stay sober, since it seems like that might be eliminating all my digital devices and I have some kind of emotional attachment to them.