Vicious belief about PMO and other habits

hello guys, lately i have been thinking about the beliefs behind feeling certain ways during nofap. And these are my thoughts about it.
Have you ever felt shame and guilt after relapse? Felt like you were less than people around you because you just relapsed or watched porn yesterday? Maybe edged for a while and now you feel disappointed and sad. What about the opposite? Can you recall your emotions from your longest streak? For me i felt like lion walking alongside sheeps. energy was flowing wildely in my body and seemed like everyone else noticed how charged i was. one would say that this caused more girly action and well it did. my goal is to find out why have we (at least i) felt that way.
pmo is habit gone out of hand in other words, addiction that we share, but its very very unique habit. if we compare pmo to our other habits we will see odd pattern. take diet for example. i have been on diet for 3 years and several times i have eaten cookies, tortes, chocolates etc. basically equivalent of relapse. do you want to know how i felt? i felt like it was ok and eating cookies once was not much of a failure. i have never felt shame, guilt and other terrible emotions you feel after relapse. but it was relapse as well. then i thought about it and i also feel ok when i miss meditation or working out. i never feel bad about skipping those activities. in conclusion relapsing in meditation, diet, working out, etc.. does not make me feel any negative emotion while relapsing in nofap well you know what its like.
now question is what drives this difference of perception? i believe that at least in my case i have bought idea from society that people who dont watch porn and fap are better than the ones who do. and this is vicious idea to live with. it means that i measure whether im Fapstronaut or fapper and my self esteem depends on that. that explains why i felt like lion walking along sheeps. i thought i was better than all the guys who were still pmoing. i believe that thinking that you are better than majority of guys, because you no longer fap is just as bad as thinking that you are less because you have just relapsed.

in conclusion i am no longer going to judge people (including myself) based on their habits. i no longer think that people who do nofap are better than the ones who dont. morals and values are what really matter about people not the things they are currently doing regularly. i hope that i will never feel good because of believing that im surrounded by lesser people.