VICTORY. :)

A very good evening what an awesome experience it was today I was going to face a very difficult brutal test. I couldn't believe Did I succeeded this test? And the answer is yes yes. Enter line did I succeeded this test? And the answer is yes yes.

I Heery I'm going to share with you my experience. I came from coaching. I just relapsed two days ago. The urges were strong, and the whole afternoon I was in search of ways to get into isolation and see porn. Since my dad was at home I could not do so till 5:30(as he was leaving for a conference at that time ). I kept on moving back and forth my iPad with tension and anxiety developing in me I was restless.

I(the part of the brain which loves to reproduce)planned that when dad would leave and I would go and see porn with M. My logical brain was also having a plan that I would start doing my yoga and then chanting to stop my bad mind from PM.

So there was going to be fierce battle bw them at 5:30

I was training my logical brain for this very moment of today by brainwashing it with good stuff( since good in good out, whatever you feed your subconscious it will record and in future will return the same good stuff)

Then I rocked the time 5:30 to 7:00 when I was fully alone in the house with iPad passcode. My logical brain won this war. I am very very happy that I passed this test.

Now when my mom returns I am going to make her change the passcode again.
I will again prepare (brainwash my brain) for 21 days. Then I will again give the test.

Thus by consistently brain washing my brain the day will surely come when I will not require anyone to keep me away from Internet access

Morale:- Figting urges of PM are like fighting a war. If you are not prepare enough you will surely lose.

DO YOUR BEST
YOU CAN AND YOU WILL

 

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