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Viewed soft-porn. Reset counter???

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Deleted Account, Aug 9, 2020.

  1. I am not sure if i relapsed or not and i need your thoughts on it before i decide to take matters to myself and 'actually' relapse. A few hours ago i was on Facebook and received a friend request from a spam account. The profile picture was that of a model but obviously it was a fake. As i was deleting the request i noticed a link which obviously was of that to a porn/adult dating site. I stupidly clicked it, thinking that my blocker app will block it. To my surprise it wasn't blocked and i was taken to the page. The page was an online 'sex chat' site. I saw a picture but immediately outed out. I was shocked.

    Idk what got to me but i decided to search up every adult dating i can think of to ensure they were all blocked. That was my intention, to ensure they were blocked, not to seek pleasure. It seemed that any website i'd enter would automatically be blocked. This was good. I spent over 30 minutes doing so, with every site being blocked. However i entered one particular website it took me to some domain. The page said that the site is no longer active but it offered suggestive links to other websites. One of them was a professional nude photography site for women to show themselves of. I clicked on it and the website passed through.

    Initially the photos i saw on the website featured women that were clothed. At maximum the girls were dressed in a bra and bikini. Idk what got into my head but i decided to skim through the album. Stupid i know. I stupidly thought there would be no nudity. As i was scrolling through the album, i came across pictures of women literally revealing their bosoms and breasts. Idk what got into me but i decided to continue looking through them. The whole ordeal lasted for maybe 15-20 seconds before i regained consciousness and closed off the browser before blocking that particular website. That was it. The worst thing i saw were there bosoms and nothing else. And I WAS NOT TOUCHING MYSELF AT ALL DURING THE ORDEAL.

    I am now deeply upset. Many people say i should reset my counter. But if i do that than my mind will ultimately convince me to finish the ordeal and just relapse completely and i don't want that. A wrong doesn't justify a wrong. Part of me wants to just forget this and pretend nothing happened but i feel too guilty to admit it. What are your thoughts??

    My problem has always been mainstream porn and masturbation, not necessarily this...............

    P.S. I changed my privacy settings on Facebook to ensure i don't receive anymore fake friend requests.....
     
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  2. The journey is yours so also the choice. Obviously if you reset you will remember the mistake next time and you'll avoid it.
    If you don't your brain will be be used to the fact that is no big deal watching soft porn during your journey and it might get worst escalating to real porn.

    I know if you are in hardmode NoFap tells you to reset. Otherwise I dont know
     

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