Wasting my life. Please help me !

Man, you already know the answer. Just delete it. Eventually you won't regret it. Do yourself a favor : if you really want to quit, just delete those files.

 

If I had a porn stash of 152GB that included many "rare" videos that you can't find for free anymore, and I just deleted it one day, you can do the same.
Besides, 152GB is jack shit compared to some people I used to know from those addict circles in the porn community. So if you're saying just "several GB" then that's really nothing, just delete it.

 

Delete this shit. It is nothing good for you, so why do you want to watch it? It is worthless and toxic.

You can as well fill your hard drive with pictures of a horse shit instead. Why do you need to keep something so unnatural and disgusting?

 

SPOILER - Do not read if you don't want to be aroused and you are proud of your streak!!

I had the most beautiful woman (ex-girlfriend) in the world, most hot and sexy girl I have ever seen in my life, and I have done some PRO high res photos of her naked in many different positions while everything visible by my deepest sexual dreams and she was up for it...................... and ...................after break up I have deleted all those pictures. You can ask me why I will never get that back again, I don't even want to (only my addicted part is crying deeply, but I don't care).

I have even destroyed the hard drive so I can't use software to recover photos back again. If I chose to be addict it would be the most daemonic precious material I ever had and it would destroy my life until nothing left. I would be fapping to it 50x a day. It was much more amazing for me than any porn video or photo I have ever seen on internet, EVER in my life.

I will rather do these difficult decisions now and I will live for the rest of my life as a champion. Free of addiction. With free soul and smile on my face. Porn will not control me.

 

Keep it up, you can get free if you really want to. But know that the temptations get really hard on the 10 - 20 day period. You have to learn self-control. Try doing that with food. If there is anything you really love, just buy it (or make it) and put it on a visible place BUT! Abstain from eating it. You'll notice that the urges are similar that to PMO. But as you abstain more and more, you will gain control, which you will be able to use to fight PMO.

 

Search around the forum, I think I saw discussions about blocking the sites, I don't have much experience with that, because when I was addicted I didn't have smartphone, and God freed me in one day from P, so I didn't need blockers for my PC.

 

Me too. I used to have bunch of really gorgeous girls porns. I was fapping like I used to as usual and all of sudden I felt like I am being loser and such a perv. I did regret at that time deleting those gorgeous girls in my usb drive but for my future and for my brain I just deleted without hesitation.

 

I would never ask you why because it is pretty obvious that real man would delete it. She let you had these pictures, because you were together, but now - you have no right to store it. Simple as that.

Mate, why are you looking at this shit in TV? It is a porn substitute for you. If you decided to stop PMO, then you need to avoid all porn substitutes like watching "music (sic!) television", social media photos (Instagram etc), reading erotic stories, chatting with strangers in internet, using dating apps (we all know what kind of apps they in fact are).

Could you tell me what do you like to do in your free time? Why do you even watch sobe dumb videos in TV?

PS: I don't think TV in general is useless - there are plenty of TV series or movies worth seeing But I would rather recommend streaming platform than regular TV.

 

I suggest running a Google search for 'NoFap preparation', there's some great stuff on here and elsewhere that helped me no end. The key is to plan for recovery rather than simple abstinence. Willpower only goes so far.

 

In my experience, you can't. In my experience, the act of deletion will (in part) feel like flushing old friends down the toilet. In my experience, there will be grief and sorrow, loneliness and regret. In my experience, you will wonder how you might ever live without those friends in your life, you will long to see some of them again - just once. In my experience, you will think about how good you were together - all the good times, that after all, never really hurt anyone. In my experience, you'll think about building the stash up again; maybe not the whole thing, just a few choice bits and pieces.

In my experience, this is all a manifestation of addiction.

Go ahead and delete the stash anyway.

 

Congratulations! If I were to offer anything further, it would be this: Stick with it. In my experience, this is a long and challenging journey...

 

Nicely said. That's true. If you want to quit, you will naturally destroy those files. But I understand it's easy to say !

 

im suffering to my friend but i told people close to me about my addictions and it really helped! dont be alone and visit here often for chat and motivation, delete that porn and you have to find that will power you can do it! try exercise to pass time and try get out the house