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WATCHED PORN IMAGES ON A WEBSITE. INTENTIONALLY. But then my friend Called up and I got busy.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by irock, May 26, 2015.

  1. irock

    irock Fapstronaut

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    So today , I was feeling very depressed on my day 9 . So , I could not control and log in to a porn website. While I was watching pics for like 20 seconds , my mum bring me dinner which I had to eat. I cannot deny because she would be angry then . At this point I can feel the chemical changes in my body like shaking hands and high heart beat and I cannot wait to watch porn . But soon as I ended up eating dinner which was a matter of like 4 minutes , my friend called up. He wanted to hangout and was like forcing me so much . So I decided to go out with my friend which I thought could not take more than 20 minutes. But , then I was able to see how beautiful life is when you don't retain your concentration on porn and girl . Within minutes , I was able to focus my mind out of porn and stuff . And all the symptoms of porn like shaking hands and high heart beat , irritation and anger was gone so I knew my urges are gone. I took advantage of the moment while I was outside with my friend and opened my web browser to delete all my history and switched off my cell which is like a sign that after I get back to home , I will not be watching any porn and will put my phone in a box and will do other stuff like TV AND GAMES and all that. So guys , I want to know is it a relapse because I dont think that I had dopamine rush while I was watching porn pics. If i had dopamine rush , then I would not be able to enjoy with my friend and would keep on thinking about sexual fantasies. I am very curious to know if its a relapse or not. Any response is appreciated . Thanks for your help guys !!
     
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  2. IGY

    IGY Guest

    It is up to you. BUT - if you decide not to reset, do not use it as an excuse another time that you can get away with watching porn for 20-30 seconds and it won't affect you.
     
  3. Heelhook

    Heelhook Fapstronaut

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    For your sake keep the counter as it is. Ive been in situation i would just check pics time from time and eventually the rush got me and i lap
     
  4. Buzzltyr

    Buzzltyr Fapstronaut

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    As Dr. Gary Wilson explains in his video, these are the symptoms of "Sensitization" to porn.

    Your brain is getting the dopamine rush with just the anticipation of watching porn. The idea of a reboot is to dissociate dopamine rush from the watching of porn. I would say if you were intentionally going to watch P, you should be honest with yourself.

    This video is a must watch for all Fapstronauts!
     
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