Watching porn since I was 7 years old

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Deleted Account, Dec 10, 2017.

  1. Hi guys, i'm new to nofap and I am looking for some advice and support.

    So this is my story. I first seen porn when I was 7 when i found my step father's dvd. It was girls getting fucked under water and all sorts of crazy shit so I kinda seen hardcore shit early. So that was my first encounter, however, I didn't start masturbating until I was 8 years old and this is when my addiction started...

    I would masturbate to normal porn and it would be every other week, then when I turned 9, it started to be every other day, then when I turned 10 it started to be almost every day of the year. When I was about 10-11 years old I started watching slightly weirder porn such as incest, although I knew it probably wasn't real (obviously I know now it wasn't) I still felt a bit guilty.

    Moving on to my teenage years 13-15 I was still very much addicted to porn, so much so that my record for most amount of faps in one day was 10 which I know is crazy. At this point I have gained the reputation of being the overly horny guy in my friend group kinda like Quagmire from Family Guy except I was masturbating instead of having sex.

    I am now 18 (still a virgin) I have had girlfriends before and that would usually make me stop masturbating even though I wasn't having sex with them so this why i'm mainly trying to get a girlfriend and also lose my virginity. however, I can't seem to get one so my porn addiction is still crazy high. I would masturbate at least 5 times a day a lot of the time when I was 16 and kinda got a bit of erectile dysfunction until i stopped for a while and went back to normal. Since then I have been on and off with trying to stop fapping and the longest I've went is 14 days which I think is alright but after that I went back to fapping every day again. Also between 16-18 years old I have been getting into weirder porn which is worrying me such as forced porn, bestiality and other weird porn so i'm really trying to stop and desperately need help/advice.

    Thanks.
     
  2. JakeO5

    JakeO5 Fapstronaut

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    Its simple man , just stop ,, advice ????? You see the wonderful thing about nofap is , is the awareness of " I have a problem" it is that knowing that you want to be better and improve yourself , becoming a better person , I am going to be honest ,I actually found out like 5 months ago that this is a problem and I need to fight and I did , I never made it pass day 21 because I would relapse and relapse and relapse , and you are probably like "who are you to give advise" yes I know my streak suck but I can give you advise of what you would experience

    So first ,porn and masturbation is as just as good as a weed or alcohol addiction. ,weed ,porn and alcohol activates your dopamine system higher as it should be and that is why you feel so good after masturbation , so 1st if you gonna quit porn you also should quit alcohol and other drugs if you use it because then its gonna be worthless

    2nd is the withdrawals , and trust me it sucks , depression , anxiety , mood swings ,insomnia and brain fog "you wil feel like you are becoming a stupid dumb idiot " you are going to think you are losing your mind and that is the good thing , because most people think that there is actually something wrong with them but actually it is only the withdrawals but luckily that only last like 2 weeks , but it goes away without noticing , it is a there just to rewire your brain

    3rd is the relapse , and trust me the relapse never never happens while you are you facing the withdrawals , it usually happens after the withdrawal , you would be like " ah I'm fine ima do it one more time " and then BOOM you are back to square one

    4th ,fully healing and the "super powers " meaning you will feel and be smarter , more aware of what is happening around you , you gonna feel awesome and that's all gonna be natural and good , and actually your testosterone level would double , so girls is really gonna notice you

    And sorry for my English it is only a 2nd language
     
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  3. CC6512

    CC6512 Fapstronaut

    Quitting an addiction isn't the easiest thing in the world...heck I'm still trying to fully recover from PMO even though I completed the challange for more than 90 days in the past. Some tips that I have for you is to stay busy...this may sound simple but works like a charm...not having a lot of free time will decrease your chances of relapse. Secondly get rid of any thing that may trigger you to fap or watch porn. if you used to watch porn on the internet install a blocker, if you have physical copies of porn get ride of them. Thats really about it I know it's not much but they definitely help. I wish you the best towards recovery
     
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  4. JakeO5

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    I like your profile pic LOL , John Rambo best movie character of all time
     

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