We need to realise how bad it is to succes

I joined nofap 10 days ago. It was the firts time i wrigted about my adiction to porn, and not regular P. When i watch P i watch really violent P. wiht rapes, kidnaping, tied up, and even kills. It is f*ing horrible and sick. I started to watch this at the age of 15-16. When I watch it i fell is like a movie (it is always role play) i was surprised beacause there is a huge production of this videos. With a lot of famous P.Stars. And Im not the only one, each video have almost like 5'000 to 10'000 views (with a los of likes and positiv coments, how sick can be that ???

But I know is wrong, I know is horrible and sick. I have TO STOP, and im gonna to STOP watching any kind of P and M. This have to end. But i know is not going to be easy is a long proces. But at the end Im gonna sucess, I wont give up.

When you realise and think about what you really do and when yo think and analyse what do you do on the internet. You just have to accept the reallity:

Somenthing is wrong with me, i really have to change beaucause if I dont stop,this is going to ruin my life.

I have watched some sick P. I admited is sick and disgusting. But I know im better I know I can change and try to make something out of my life.

P is a sick dangerous drug, i accepted it know. And i accept my addiction.

Right now is not the best moment in my life. And P is not really my main problem, is only one of the simptons (really good post last week in NoFap)

To improve my life i have to change a lot about my self, P is just the littlest of my problems. But I'm gonna to improve my life step by step. And P and M have to go out of my life. They can't stay in my mind. They have to go, and when they go, I will never let them come back again!