Dear NoFappers This post is my last resort to try to fight the cravings I'm experiencing at the moment. I'll just pour out my thoughts in hope to decrease the pressure. If you're susceptible to "triggers" maybe don't read this. I've been six days clean of porn and masturbation. Most days have been pretty easy, no real struggle to speak off. Today is different. Yesterday I had my first date in two month. I brought her home, we made out, she was on her period, so no sex, she goes home, I go to sleep, all is well. I wake up today with morning wood and pretty strong cravings. I didn't touch myself but it took me an hour to work through them and get up. The rest of the day was fine, until two hours ago. I'm getting mad cravings again. My mind keeps reminding me how good it would feel to masturbate after six days of break, the longest break in... a year? Two years? I started fantasizing about a succubus who's seducing me, breaking my will bit by bit, until I give in to her. I'd do anything for her, even kill, if she just promises me an eternity of pleasure. I want to get mindfucked.. I'm hard as can be and it started to become torture. As I'm teasing myself I realize I'm not gonna break my streak, I'm not gonna relapse, I'm not gonna touch myself. And so I'm in agony. Split in two. It's hell. I know it would be hell as well if I would give in. But at least a pleasurable hell.. I lied on my bed for an hour mentally trying to get as close to that realm of sin as possible. But I didn't undress or touch myself. Finally I got up and started to work out for almost an hour. During the workout I was fine but as soon as I'm done it hit me again. "Fuck iiit, let's relapse one more time, the streak isn't long yet, it will feel amazing!" I want to.. so bad. This is hell. I don't know how many more of those waves I can resist before the day is over. Writing this makes me feel better. Thank god for this forum.