I don't know how to start this. I'm 32 years old. currently jobless. I'm going to university. writing my dissertation. well actually failing to write my dissertation. I might drop out. clearly I have depression. I think I had it for a long time. I'm addicted to porn. it's been I think two days since the last time I watch. I have suicidal thoughts also of self-harm. I had them for long time. they come and go. I have a problem with procrastination. I also have stress, a lot. it's been a source of many pains in my life. I have IBD. where I live the drug that I need for it. it's very expensive and very hard to get. so I started to ration it out. so far no problem. and now I have to decided to not watch porn anymore. because it doesn't make anything better. thanks for reading this.