fapstraunaut90
Fapstronaut
Hey guys and gals,
This is a post to remind me and those people who are on this journey and have gotten far in their streaks. Never be complacent with the number.
My streak ended after 2 nights of partying and alcohol. But it wasn't just that. Even though I partied, I was feeling down. Not that I didn't enjoy it, but other things happened inside my head and that made me feel lost and confused. So it all lead to start of a new streak.
Although I'm happy that I didn't binge, started my streak the next moment and quickly brushed myself of and looked for positives. I have learnt a lot in these 4 months and one thing which I learnt on my 123rd day was that it's a long way to go.
Now my question to you guys is that I thought by 123rd day I would be in a state that I can at least postpone PMO for sometime. But that day, I just couldn't. It was as if this whole effort, pain and everything just went smoke. Why did this happen? And what can I do about it?
P.S : I was full aware when this thought came in my mind and even thought about my streak. But my mind was just going on.
This is a post to remind me and those people who are on this journey and have gotten far in their streaks. Never be complacent with the number.
My streak ended after 2 nights of partying and alcohol. But it wasn't just that. Even though I partied, I was feeling down. Not that I didn't enjoy it, but other things happened inside my head and that made me feel lost and confused. So it all lead to start of a new streak.
Although I'm happy that I didn't binge, started my streak the next moment and quickly brushed myself of and looked for positives. I have learnt a lot in these 4 months and one thing which I learnt on my 123rd day was that it's a long way to go.
Now my question to you guys is that I thought by 123rd day I would be in a state that I can at least postpone PMO for sometime. But that day, I just couldn't. It was as if this whole effort, pain and everything just went smoke. Why did this happen? And what can I do about it?
P.S : I was full aware when this thought came in my mind and even thought about my streak. But my mind was just going on.