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Went searching for an escort but stopped myself

Discussion in 'Compulsive Sexual Behavior' started by The Young Explorer, Feb 10, 2022.

  1. The Young Explorer

    The Young Explorer Fapstronaut

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    So I'm on 6 days of no PMO.

    Just now a chain of thoughts formed in my mind. I used to live in a city and before I left I had an intermittent habit of visiting escorts.

    I'm heading back to the same city for a day in the middle of March and I began thinking "by the time I'm back I will have been around 45 days no PMO, (half way through a reboot). What if while I was there, I setup with my favourite escort and I think I'm being honest with myself when I say this was a beautiful lady, 20 years older than me, very nice and I had a positive experience with her." I thought this and I logged onto the website where you find escorts. I specifically did not look at any images of women. I focused my vision elsewhere. I went onto the search tab looked up her name to see if she was in town and I couldn't find her so I left the website. That's all I did. I felt an erection coming on but it ended when I left the website.

    Frankly, I don't know what to make of what just happened here. It wasn't a relapse. But it was a near relapse. Any advice for where I am right now? Part of me is still considering going through with this plan.
     
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  2. Ignus

    Ignus Fapstronaut

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    It's hard to find where were you in this addiction, but searching for escort is count as relapse by general (unfortunately!). It's truly up to you whether you want to change some rules what considered as relapse or not (it's your reboot, anyway). That's okay, don't feel bad. At least you don't hire an escort. Be more careful next time.

    Keep the spirit up!
     
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  3. mj48

    mj48 Fapstronaut

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    Good for you. Seriously. I'm now addicted to P and paying for online stuff but at least i cant catch an STD or get invovled in anything illegal that why. Best of luck. We are here for you.
     
  4. MovingOnFromThePast

    MovingOnFromThePast Fapstronaut

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    For me, when I hire an escort and finish. Regret and shame always comes.
     
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  5. Think about the money you will spend on her and picture how depressed you’ll be after, think hard on that.
    Then take that money and do something nice for yourself.
     

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