wet dreams after 90 days and another one after 188 days and feelings of dread

Hello,
I had my second wet dream on my streak, quite funnily they both came somewhere after 90 days of hardmode.

After the first one i felt incredibly exhausted, depressed and drained after.
After the second wet dream i still feel the same and with no motivation, lowkey energy and kinda same like at the peak of my porn addiction. Even peeked some P out of the miserable state but never masturbated and orgasmed. And funnily the same night i almost had another sex dream and wet dream, but somehow i just woke up and managed to withold it seconds before release. The following day i just feel like a zombie, like i fapped 4 times a day and hours of P.

Why is that after almost 190 days and a wet dream i feel like an absolute mess and dirt.

I even begin to get afraid to have sex with a woman, i may just feel the same dread and depression after this. P messed up my body so much that a single orgasm and release brings me back to this same miserable state i was before my nofap journey?

Has anyone experienced the same? Quite a long reboot, then a wet dream/sex with an orgasm and the feelings of depression and extremely low energy the following day?