What’s wrong with me?

I'm guessing you are straight and porn has just messed with your radar. There is plenty of material to support this. People who watch lots of porn have evolving tastes and progress to stuff they usually wouldn't watch...it is a progression of your addiction.. Cheers

 

i have that problem too but i dont m on gay p
i just like to see big package getting blow
and i dont enjoy small ones i dont enen enjoy anythink but that
im not gay i know it but when you watch somehink toomuch eventually you get bored

 

It sounds like escalation and at times during your journey urges will be high when your brain tries to get what you used to give it. In time your mind will reset to where it would normally be, when you get there you will know what your tastes are.

 

I don't have scientific evidence of this but I think that for some people, shame and taboo may function as arousal triggers for some.

Spoiler: For instance, here's my experience with shame-based arousal...

I never fantasized about sex with men while I was going through puberty. I had a navel fetish because of the genital arousal I would feel when I stimulated my navel. It didn't help that I grew up in the 90s and midriff shirts were everywhere. I felt dirty staring at other people's navels and my attraction toward them progressed to more extreme fantasizes and layering of different paraphilias. I grew up shy so I never told boys I dated about my unique sexual interest so I was extremely repressed and sexually isolated to myself. I was always ashamed and I felt weird all the time. Because I never engaged with anyone and expressed that side of myself, my fantasizing took a deeper dive and all of a sudden I was getting interested in incest, exhibitionism/voyeurism, and molestation (me being the molester). Basically I was seeking more deviant thrills and I assume that for you, homoeroticism is that thrill. It's a result of how the brain is looking for more novelty to get off after its been desensitized.

That being said, to the drug junkie, sobriety is boring because they have become accustomed to unnatural highs. Sure, feeling arousal is a natural mode of embodiment but when we keep rigging ourselves to become aroused at so many things that contradict what we value, we are getting high and we're ruining our sobriety. I guess I'm speaking the obvious but what I'm trying to say is that I'm hopeful that those feelings will eventually go to the side if you learn to reject every temptation. I want to say that it will magically disappear but I think we're scarred and now it's best to work on accepting our reality and living with discipline from this point.

 

Stop dwelling on it. U even said u only like women body. If u make it a habit, it would just get worse. U r not a bi.