As I get to bed and start masturbating, life start to feels hopeless. Decide to go all the way and keep lacking self control. Decide to PMO and gain my waifu back for some minutes, only to lose self control, progress and any chance with real woman. Decide to pay whores and become a sex addict. Decide to control myself and go through depression, boredom, all the waiting only to suffer with the love for a 2d character and the uncertainty of true love. Death will only make things worse. *sigh* Gonna control myself then.