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What a strange dreams on 85th day

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Fenix Rising, Feb 18, 2018.

  1. Fenix Rising

    Fenix Rising Fapstronaut

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    Yesterday night I've had two beers with a friend which I shouldn't have had, as I'm allergic to it and immediately get terrible headache and yesterday was no exception, but a strange thing happen when I finally fell asleep in great pain at 6 am. I had this weird very lucid dream of being truly deeply happy, achieving a state of utter inner peace with myself. It's hard to explain. It was not sexual by any means, just pure happiness and connection with everything. I haven't felt this way in real life for at least 20 years. It felt so real, more real then real life. I was totally devastated when I woke up in harsh reality and realized it was just a dream. I've had some close encounters with all kinds of psychoactive drugs in my early years, but nothing comes even close to this experience.

    It immediately reminded me of how empty my life was, how shitty I've felt for the last two decades. Being dead and angry inside. How much more real life has to offer/teach us... I've cried like a baby for the first time in a long, long time. Hell, I didn't even cry on my grandparents and parents funerals. I'd give anything to feel so alive again. I've tried to relive it by listening to Eva Cassidy/Sting Fields of gold, I don't know why, but experience just reminded me of being allowed to walk on the fields of gold for a moment.

    Did anybody else experience something similar on your journey?

     
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