I have been addicted to all kinds of porns and I had different phases. For few years I was watching BDSM porn and masturbating 3 times a day. This phase was my school period. Later I shifted to Sissy porn and was badly addicted to it. No matter how many times I tried i could never recover and I lost hope. Now this may sound funny but what changed my life was a movie. I saw this wolverine movie one day and there was this one particular scene where he was crying holding his wife and screaming in pain. It just hit me hard that I want someone in life who cares for me and I care for her. I want to be a good husband and good father. So i started acting like wolverine and imagined having claws and firat time in my life I have completed 30 days in past 15 years. Whenever some thought crosses my mind I want to hold my love in my arms, hug her and assure her that I am a good man and I love her a lot. I feel I am able to tear up my thoughts with my claws. This mag sound stupid but this is the onko thing that has helped me.
This particular scene makes me feel like that I am fighting me against me. The good me and the bad me. And i need to fight my addiction with this determination.
I think whatever it may be-movie,music, book or a great song,if this pushes you towards good, it's all good. No harm in having a support pillar which may not be real. Most of the times it is always the fiction that pushes us forward and it does miracles.
Whatever works do it! Good imagery and symbolism is how we can overcome addiction. I like to visualise myself as the man I want to be, strong and powerful who just laughs ya and ignores any stupid urges
