'What could you do to feel worse?'

hi

 

I am doing o.k. trying to stay out of my bad habits, failed today, but did good yesterday, how r you doing?

 

It is an interesting question. The short answer is plenty. Giving up PMO is definitely something that has set my emotions on edge, but it's not the worse thing. What WOULD make me feel worse is continuing to get off on kinky fetish porn that I normally find repulsive. Continuing to cultivate false friendships with people who have real homophobic issues is another way that I'd feel much worse than I feel right now. In short, I feel much better doing this and elevating my emotions for a while if it means breaking free of this addiction once and for all. I've MO'ed at least once each day since age 15, with serious PMO issues since I was between jobs in late 2009 after my last relationship ended. I'd get off as many as 4 times while PMOing, with toe-curling orgasms that would have me shooting on my headboard and wall, but my body is not able to have normal sex with a person anymore. I need to get my body right once again. So these emotions are worth it.

 

Ahhh... Thanks for that. Did not catch the link the first time. Yeah, that was a great podcast.