What do you call this??

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I have been successful in combating my MO problem of late. Its been about a year and a half now but it's by forcible restriction. I am not a porn guy.

I trjed everything under the sun until I got it right with what works for me.

That said, the feeling comes to mind often about my orgasms when I had them. There is a lot of info on post O chemical changes in a man that I have read. So I am somewhat familiar with the cycle.

What I couldn't figure out was why it lasted so long. I could understand days or maybe a week but I went much longer. It was pure misery. I didnt know why it happened to me like this.

I felt like crap day after day almost like each time I MO I sunk deeper and deeper. It got to a point where it was noticeable to my doctor. I tried everything and nothing worked. I just couldn't get myself out of this vicious cycle.

I finally found my solution which provides a solid barrier from M. I had started just M and stop before the O for a while. I like that because M feels so good. But O feels soooo bad.

For me there is no such thing as a good O. It just doesn't happen. The M feels awesome. I would just stop and pick up where I left off when I came back to it.

I knew that the M was also going to be an issue and I would probably start feelings that are inappropriate.

So now since I dont MO anymore, I dont have these violent chemical changes. But it always bothered me because I felt impure. Not to mention headaches, nausea, etc.

I am better now but I just feel bad. It kind of haunts me even though I am thru it now.

Someone said I might have PAWS. I don't know. If you have a thought please share here or DM me.

Some days I still feel miserable about it ecause of my personal situation.

Thx

 

[Ascended Ninja]

Wait what is the issue? You have been actually fully celibate with no ejaculation AT ALL for 1.5 years or just no solo masturbation? Do you have lots of frequent nocturnal emissions or none at all?

You're saying sometimes on random days at random times you get horny, then you very vividly remember how it used to feel like when you used to orgasm and during these episodes you experience these symptomps: "But it always bothered me because I felt impure. Not to mention headaches, nausea, etc."

Am I understanding this right?

-- If yes, then I've NEVER heard of headaches and nausea from being celibate. You need to see a medical professional. Do you ever have blue balls or something? Just want to mention in case you go to a random doctor and they tell you to just bust it - do not. Doctors are indoctrinated against this stuff nowadays!

 

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I am writing in past tense. Kinda new here and just trying to find out if those things I used to experience are common or not to guys that MO.

I don't ejaculate anymore. I haven't had a nocturnal emission in God knows when. I haven't masturbated in about a year and a half. I officially marked March 1, 2022, but it's been a bit longer than that.

When I get horny now I remember that I would feel those lousy feelings when I used to O. I realized that for whatever reason, O no longer felt good.

I think because I was just masturbating and not having sex because my wife is ill, that I felt so miserable about myself afterwards that it just made me feel worse. I already had the problem of not feeling great after O, but masturbating behind her back just added to the sick feeling I got each time.

I am not able to O now because of the permanently locked chastity cage I wear. It's 24/7/365 so I can avoid feeling that way. It became no good for.me to O. But I had to lock because I was still addicted to M, but I just edged and stopped.

Now I would M and deliberately not O because my M urges are out of control. But the cage has been the key to my success. Trust me if it wasn't on me I kmow exactly what I would be doing.

I say that but actually my urges are a lot fewer and further between than uncaged. Before though, it was bad. So someone holds my key now.

My doctor is pleased with the cage and how well it works. She wants it to stay on.

Not sure what you meant about what doctors say.

 

[Ascended Ninja]

you wear iron underwear? dude whats wrong with you...What happens when you get natural boners? Doesn't it hurt your organ? Boners for males are simply about blood flow. Horniness is an artificial pumping of blood down there. But actually blood and chi pumps down there naturally at times. Including sleep sometimes and even from just eating a good meal after a good rest and a small fast, sometimes. Literally could get a boner out of anything. Its just natural bodily biorhythms. Like female menstruation. When the male has a boner their whole system is empowered and strong.

Also whats the point of such immensely forced celibacy? At some point you will have to take the medieval torture device (the iron underwear) out. Will go on a rampage and possibly RAPE the women around you? Or start masturbating in public? Are you sure you can control yourself?

You are training yourself to be a public menace if you cannot practice mental celibacy.