What do you think of... 12 step programs?

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  1. swissarmyknight

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    I've attended two different 12 step addiction recovery meeting focused on sexual addictions, both for over a year and half.

    I'm curios on your thoughts on them. I felt the benefit of community there, no doubt, but the pandemic prevented meetings from happening and now I've been questioning the benefit the had for me personally. So many times I felt like an outsider because the closest person in age to me was still 15-20 years older (I'm 25) and most of them had some heavy problems/experiences that it was almost unrelatable.

    Some were already on their third marriage, some kicked out of the house, some were arrested for trying to hire an undercover cop for sex and then bailed out by their wives, and some had even given STD's to their spouses. Meanwhile, I've only had one sexual partner, am younger than all of them, and really am just a guy who wants to stop looking at P and masturbating.

    Of course, most of them didn't care or think any less of me for having "fewer" issues than them and I'm definitely getting in my head about it. I loved the people there and felt genuine care for/from them.

    Just wondering if anyone has advice.
     
  2. Psalm27:1my light

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    They have helped my husband. Just look at it this way .... if you don’t get into recovery those older men will be you in time. They were you at 25, but this is where their addiction took them. They were not on 3 marriages at 25. You have the advantage that they didn’t in that there is more understanding of this as an addiction. 20 years ago there was very little help if any.
     
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  3. swissarmyknight

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    That's a very good point, and my sponsor told me that same thing if anyone tried to tell me anything belittling.

    I know it's mostly just my projected feelings. I know it's helpful, and I plan on going back at some point. I'm eternally grateful for the resources of our day and age! It's mostly my own insecurity that keeps me from attending the online meetings. And my shame also hurts my chances of attending cause I feel so embarrassed to say, "I'm a sex addict, and I've been sober for 2 days", cause it seems like my number is always in the single digits.
     
  4. Sharksvv

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    You yourself said you felt the benefit of community there. It helps talking to people about it because it keeps you accountable, yes the pandemic has make this more difficult but you can always talk on here. You can do it.
     
  5. swissarmyknight

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    Thank you, it does help to talk here. Stay strong.
     
  6. Trobone

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    I've enjoyed them.

    I was able to find a sponsor who is around my age and had similar acting our patterns/histories.

    I'm not trying to rush through it at all, and the higher power stuff is a struggle for me. However, having a weekly zoom call (for now) and phone calls to make help keep me on track and avoid complatency.
     
  7. swissarmyknight

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    I also struggle with the higher power part; I'm from an extremely religious family but in the last few years have been really struggling with my belief in God and organized religion.
     
  8. BoraxKarloff

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    I tried in three cities. Here is my experience of each.

    The first, in NYC, was filled with rapists, flashers, child molesters on parole and perverts who had been ordered to attend by the courts.

    The second also had some of these elements, but most of the men there seemed to be semi-morons. I can't take that, I'm sorry. I also felt some would just as soon take my wallet, stab me or ask if they could stay at my place as they would help a newcomer. One guy even followed me as I left, and hit me up for a buck.

    With the third group I attempted to attend, you had to communicate to the facilitator via email before the address of the meeting would be revealed to you and tell them your first and last name, and eff that. That makes it "Sex Addiction Not Anonymous."

    I'm just a fapper, for crying out loud, and I don't even look at porn - I look at photos or videos of a certain type of woman without her clothes.

    I finished with 12-steps in my 20s when I actually went through them (for another addiction) sponsored people, led the meetings, made the coffee, read the Big Book backwards and forwards, and took it about as far as a person could take it...and that's that.

    If it worked for you, no problem, anyone gets help whatever way that works for them, more power to them! :)

    But for me, I really need people with an IQ of more than 12 for me to be able to identify and relate.
     
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  9. Robindale

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    Same here, but SAA is clear that it is your Higher Power, whatever that means to you. Doesn't have to be your family's version. Encourage you just to be open and develop your own relationship with Higher Power and let that take its course. Glad you found community with your group, which is important, that you are working on this at your age. Impressive and best wishes for success.
     
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  10. swissarmyknight

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    Those stories are wild. I'm lucky enough to to have only gone to groups with smart and cool people. There were a few that brought a lot of political fire with them which is not cool, but the only real problem was that sometimes there would be discussions of disdain toward the women in P or models or actresses.
     
  11. swissarmyknight

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    Thanks for your reply! I receive that compliment a lot, about being good for tackling while I'm young. While it does make me feel good and encouraged (so thank you!), I can't help but feel isolated because a lot of the reason I'm here is my religious upbringing. So not only was I raised with strange ideals and morals but now I'm in a age where very few people I come in contact with think that what I'm doing is good, or even healthy.
     
  12. Chefb87

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    SAA has been a life saver. And has been detrimental to my two years in recovery. It's amazing to have a place to go and not feel judged. To be around people that get the struggle. And to be able to tell people who I really am without feeling like I need to hide myself. I'm a porn and sex addict.
    Going through the 12 steps with my sponsor has been huge. And I'm currently doing the steps again.
     
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  13. BoraxKarloff

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    Not to be a wise guy, but I believe you mean "Instrumental" as opposed to "Detrimental." :) YW lol
     
  14. Chefb87

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    Hahaha! I should probably go to a group to learn English while I'm at it! Haha
     
  15. Peaceful magic 21

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    From my experience and the group I visited I thought they are not very welcoming and supportive for a system based around religion! In fact half of them were atheists. There didn’t seem to be much talk about the behaviours, just drone about the sacred steps! Like they were under a weird spell. I politely turned down a sponsor that had just reviled he was into watching children stuff! They all then took offence because most of them were into it. Bunch of freaks in my opinion. I found AA a lot nicer group though:)
     

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