in my last post i said that i was quitting the internet, which i didnt but i will explain that, and i want to share with you guys how i have overcome urges in the time i have been gone from here. No internet - now i didnt ditch the internet like i originally planned to, instead i found a way i could still use it and not be tempted, i put my laptop up and put it away, and instead i used my moms laptop with her permission, not only did my porn urges drop but i was still able to use the internet, the reason is because there is no way in hell i would look up anything bad on her laptop, so i had no desire to look at porn because i am not able to on her computer, because i refuse to do that, seriously this works amazingly, and quick tip, have someone change your password for you so you cannot get on it, and have them hide it, like a family member. healthy eating - i have not had anything bad to eat in about a month, my food is all natural, consisting of chicken, rice, and a TON of veggies, honestly i feel amazing, like you unhealthy people literally have no idea how amazing being healthy is, i get high off of it, i have no depression anymore and hardly any anxiety, i dont even want junk food, i hate the thought of it now and i crave veggies, you truly are what you eat, and i refuse to go back, i feel way to good for that. cold - i have been spending a lot of time in the cold, i sit outside in the cold and i walk in the cold, i really like to work out in the cold, honestly the cold makes you feel alive, and it drops your porn urges, and cold showers are amazing, i still cant bring myself to do them half the time but i am getting better at it, honestly its a really good feeling when everyone around you is shivering and you are fine in a tshirt and shorts, its all mind over matter guys, if you keep shivering than you will be cold, but i you stop and say there is no cold, i am not cold, cold does not exist, and you stop shivering, you will overcome the cold and become one with it, and you will no longer be cold. get rid of temptation - this one is easy, if something that triggers you comes into the house, whether it be a cucumber or something else, get rid of it, or chop it into tiny useless pieces. I wont lie guys, it has not been easy the whole time, mainly right now actually, i got a little depressed earlier because i miss smoking, and porn, and that moment of sadness opened up a whole can of insane urges, they creep in when you let your guard down guys, i am not sure if i can hold out but i dont want to give up again, i guess i will see, i have not been depressed or had a single urge until i let that sadness creep in, its a demon guys and you cannot let it take hold, i will be leaving this website again and this computer again, i only came back to share with you guys what i have experienced, this is not some science crap i read online, this is what i experienced and i truly believe you need these things to succeed, anyways good luck guys. edit: fuck that i am not giving up, temporary pleasure is not worth the pain and suffering it will bring, i cant believe i almost gave in.