Hello there everyone. Like some others on here, I struggle with loneliness. Here is a little bit of my story and a realization that I have had. I am 25, still a virgin, and been single pretty much my whole life. I have been on a few dates and almost got in a relationship a few times but they didn't pan out. This has been a big frustration in my life. I have seen a lot of my friends get married and I am still single. I would get so depressed by it and like a lot of you on here I would use PMO to ease that pain or as a substitute for having a girlfriend. Little did I know that it kind of killed my confidence when it comes to girls. I started this nofap challenge and it has helped but I would get frustrated because I am still single. I just want to be with someone. I went to church today and the message I heard spoke to me. It was a message about finding your identity and following your dreams and asking God to prepare you for the moments that he had planned for your life. Porn addiction was also mentioned in that message which got my attention really quick. While I am getting better, I am still addicted to porn. I got home and took a nap which isn't uncommon for me on a Sunday and while I was laying there I was praying about what I heard and what has been going on through my life. While I was doing that I came to this realization. In the past I thought being in a relationship would cure my PMO addiction. That is not the case. I would still have problems and it would not be fair if I met the woman of my dreams as a PMO addict. She deserves a better version of myself that what I am now.There are other areas of my life that need to change as well if I want to be the man that a good woman deserves. I need to grow up and be a man instead of the boy I am now. I felt like today that God was saying my future wife is out there, I just have to become the man that will give her a fulfilling relationship. I remembered a quote I heard saying instead of trying to search for the one, work on becoming the one. So I will work on becoming the one. It will be hard work and I may have to be single just a little while longer, but it will be worth it.