What is actually going on....

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by APoster661, Apr 18, 2019.

  1. APoster661

    APoster661 Fapstronaut

    Hey everyone i recently truly committed to NoFap and am on my longest streak yet (24 Days) Now here's whats new:

    -Can see women as attractive in real life again or sometimes.
    -Reduce In HOCD
    -Wanting a girlfriend again
    -A bit more motivation and happiness
    -Craving for women

    If you dont know my story I have HOCD and fapped to gay porn for a while after escalating im pretty sur.

    Now 2:

    Im getting thoughts like "NoFap wont help you...you like guys admit it"
    However since i got this far, pretty much everything about guys repulses me and right now dicks are gross absolutely vile and if I was gay i would feel like I was not happy and could feel like im missing out on women.

    Today i noticed 2 very very attractive women and one I would love to see again and I started getting aroused thinking about her and I have developed a crush on this other girl too. So this is a good start i guess.

    But today I also kept getting thoughts of dicks and id get tingling feeling in my balls and such and I dont know why...nothing is attractive about them.

    Will NoFap remove this and make it so no more tingling to dicks, like I dont know what my brain likes about it?

    NoFap is helping me realise again I love and adore women truly, not men. But its the idea that im nearly at a month of P ( I kind of googled 'Womens used panties' on ebay and got very very aroused but i clicked off so no relapse i guess) free and MO free. By now i feel like I should be strictly out of HOCD and loving women again but im scared it wont work and ill unhappy and have intrusive thoughts about my sexuality ):

    Thanks for reading if you did.
  2. Not everything changes at the same time and certainly not overnight. It's gradual, give it time.
  3. Sasha

    Sasha Fapstronaut

    I'm new to nofap and I've started experiencing HOCD, problem is I'm not gay. So that should tell you how messed up porn is. I keep pretending like HOCD isn't affecting me but it is more and more. I need to cut porn out of my life for good but the problem is I've never had a gf (29) and I get super lonely, porn was my escape. Now I have none.

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