Very good question to ask. The answer is nothing. If life is pointless so is suicide. I wake up every morning with dread that I'm going to a job that I hate in my guts, I aleays dream I'm going to do a youtube channel,write books,learm to invest so I can become rich,ho out and meet women so I can have a relationship but I never or very seldomly do it. The fact that I have to pay for a house and will most likely get divorced scares me and I use it as an excuse not to improve. But the truth is I could not get a wife right now even. I think of moving to another country starting over but again don't have the courage. Every day I live a life of quiet desperation as the quote goes. I'm just getting fucked my whole life and that has left me in a fucked state. Ro unfuck myself takes a lot of effort so I chose no to with a sigh. Happiness 100% of the time is impossiblebut depression 80% of the time sure does not seem normal.... Nothing really fulfulls me currently not the video games I play, not the movies I watch, not the conversations with my friends and family, nothing. I cannot speek my mind freely nowhere in my real life only on this fake ass silly avatar forum just like everybody else. So nothing makes me get up. Even suicide, you can't know for sure being dead is not worse. And there is always worse. Will I find motivation and look forward to doing something I love? I don't know probably not. I'll just die as an average joe or less than average joe and that's it.