What is Life??

Little about me:
It has been a while (two years) that I understood that I am suffering from PIED and fap addiction. I am 25 and I have been faping for about 10 years now. I have been trying to reboot and rejuvenate but always failed every time in last two years. Best I have made is like 10 days.

Current Scenario:
I am fucking depressed and lonely. I am on day 7 I think, i have not been counting. But this time it is different. I have decided to couple my reboot with cold showers. And my body starts to shiver even with the thought of it when I write this.
So I was born and raised in a hot country, but now I live in Midwest USA where the winter is frigid af. Today I took my cold shower when temperature outside was way below freezing (~-6 F). Yes and by cold shower i mean the coldest temperature the water from shower could be. People do these 30 day challenges, but I am probably gonna do it forever.

I would say during the first 4 days I was super pumped all day!! I was so full of energy that I can flip all desks and punch through walls and not feel the pain. I really liked that feeling.
Yesterday my neighbor threw a party at her house. It almost felt like she wanted to makeout with me by the end of it. But I was very worried about where that might lead to. So I just kept looking at my phone and then just went home.
So now I feel super depressed and super lonely. I had few friends at work but they are being dicks to me lately. My closest family would be 10 hrs fly. I wake up in middle of nights with the strong feeling of "where am I?" and then when I figure out where am I, I feel super lonely.
Are the things gonna get any better? I cannot work towards having a significant other because I feel I am not ready for it (PIED) and that just keeps pushing me into more depression.

 

Thank You Guys for support. We well get through this together!

 

Update: Day 18.
Cold showers has boosted my will power to not masturbate and not lose my battle. This is probably first time I have went without ejaculating for 18 days in last 9 years (since I was 16). I do not get morning wood no more, not sure why. At same time I do not think I am feeling very depressed, may be cold showers (temp : 35F) are helping. I am close to golden day 21, and I can already feel I am not addicted.

I have not really had a relationship in my life. I was in love few times, but never in a relationship. I never talk this to anyone who I know, because I feel they might judge me and think I am a loser.
I am just not sure how long is it going to fix my problem, the whole reason I started this journey. The PIED and anxiety to have an intercourse (only). I never had social anxiety, I can talk to any girl or any person.

Energy level is good. I feel less sluggish when I come back home from work. I am feeling that I am still getting my dopamine fix by using my phone more & by eating junk.

I will keep you'll updated, because I already feel this is going to be a lifestyle change and not some 30day, 90day challenge.