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Hi guys I was a escort addict I am 15 days clean now without even looking at any nude something nor on internet or real life. I am on hard mode and it feels great.

Anyways couldn’t sleep last night and decided to play backgammons online. You are playing with a random oppenent. Suddenly a girl came up as an oppenent. She wanted to know my name etc. Then she asked me as do you want me to make you go crazy. I asked her back how are you going to make that. Then she started sexting me and I could not resist and replied her back we chatted about a hour of sexting.

It triggered me a lot and made me spent my day think of her and my old escort experiences and today I found myself searching one. Hope I will not choose the devil and relapse. Is this thing normal that I am experiencing?

 

Mate, it was most likely another man. What kind of girl is up playing online backgammon in the middle of the night?

 

Omg gross if it was a man. Hope it wasn’t but I know that there are girls playing with this app. Anyways it cost me a halfday of searching an escort which increased my dopamine levels for nothing. spent my time on an useless shit. I can see that my addiction is really bad. But I will not go and meet with any of them will stay strong!

 

Good job staying strong, it isn't easy. Be ready for triggers and temptation.