What is wrong with me?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Piotr2000, Aug 10, 2018.

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  1. Piotr2000

    Piotr2000 Fapstronaut

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    Okay so to start off, i'm not new to nofap i had a few streaks and one longer than 90 days. So now last 3 months i started working out while on nofap. I'm still getting bigger and stronger. And now all of a sudden i seem to get attention from girls. Like when i was on my other streaks it was noticeable but now it's crazy. They start texting me out of nowhere, ask me out on dates, tell me i look good and stuff. But i honestly don't feel like trying to get with them. Because i feel like now that i'm trying to look better they all of a sudden start liking me. It just feels wrong. I did go on a date with one of them and it worked out pretty good. I wasn't even close to nervous i was just being myself and i was very social. Wich i definitely wasn't before.

    I haven't really had a relationship (or sex), so now i'm kinda freaking out. I'm 20yo and haven't done anything really, i do feel confident tho as if i've done it a million times. I feel like i'm just Asexual or something. Like i simply don't care about it.

    That's another thing i feel so confident it's crazy. I started working at a new place and some guy that worked there was mocking me all the time and borderline bullying me. I straight up pulled him aside and told him to stop or else things are gonna end up real bad. And he stopped and treats me respectfully now. I also notice i walk more confident and have a confident look.

    I also feel agressive, as in unbeatable. I feel pissed off very fast and feel like punching or hurting them right after. But i never do obviously i can still control it but still, i never had this before.

    I also stopped giving a single fuck. Everytime something happens i'm like whatever idc, like i don't feel embarrassed anymore. I'm scared it will go to the point that people will think i'm going insane. I also am planning on quitting my shitty job to go study again. I feel super motivated!

    So this is my situation now. I relapsed a few times but now i'm around 3 weeks. This really works! So i was wondering what you guys think about the fact that i don't care about sex or interest in other people. And i just wanted to give a quick update on being on nofap for a while.
     
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  2. I just have one question. If you think that you're Asexual, and don't care about sex then why are you on Nofap? The hardest thing about this addiction for me is that I can't stop thinking about sex and get triggered by girls in public every 5 minutes. I don't think you're asexual, I think you're flatlining.
     
  3. Piotr2000

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    Yeah you might be right. Well i like the benefits, more selfcontrol, more energy and feeling better in general. Fapping makes me feel bad. And damn you seem to have a hard time. I haven't expirienced this. I just feel like not caring right now. Might be flatline i don't know at this point
     
  4. It sounds like flatline.
     
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  5. Sayonara

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    It's great to hear you're having so many effects!

    What you're feeling is both hormonal and psychological. Hormonal being that you may be more sensitive to testosterone, making you more aggressive, quick to anger, naturally stronger. Psychological being that you feel better within yourself and you're more confident because you're taking control over something negative in your life (PMO). It's your outlook and perception of yourself thats changed.

    A lot of people feel like abstaining from PMO is a magic bullet to solving their problems, but there's more work to do once you've quit. You need to begin looking at yourself and the way you behave and starting thinking about how you WANT to be and how you want to behave, and then start working towards being that person.

    Good luck in your journey!
     
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  6. Sayonara

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    As for lack of sexual interest in others, continue to explore your feelings and go with what comes naturally. We all experience peaks and troughs in sexual awareness, and some troughs can last SOOOOOOO long that we feel like we're completely numb down there forever.

    Try and enjoy not being attracted to people for a while, focus your energy elsewhere while you can
     
  7. jorg78

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    It's the dopamine withdrawal. Focus on other things than sex and wait it out
     
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    Yeah i'm trying to do that. Just don't want to come over as a dick or gay if a girl aproache me haha. Thanks for the respond.
     
  9. Dagger323

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    I wouldn’t worry about that at all if I were you. From my experience, men that are focused on bettering themselves and working towards their own goals tend to be more attractive to women. The fact that your confidence is rising is only going to make you more desirable to them. If you’re not into getting a girlfriend at the moment then there’s nothing wrong with that. Life should be about more than that anyway. You have to be a complete and whole person before being with someone else. And it seems like you’re well on your way towards achieving that ultimate goal. I also wouldn’t worry about being asexual either. If you got off for years to porn then there’s no way you’re not attracted to women. Your body is just taking a much needed break from all the sexual thoughts you’ve been flooding it with. Enjoy it while it lasts and use this time to continue working towards your goals.
     
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