Buzz Aldrin
Fapstronaut
I'm going to toss this out here. NSFW warning, I'm here to tell my story and experience. This will be a series of post that'll be against older post & will bounce around threads. However, I won't be taking down my old post because I don't want to hide the past. Now that I said that.
My name is Buzz (Not actually), I’m 20 years old and the beast that’s been eating at me is Called Pornography Addiction & specifically it’s root fetish Transformation.
For those of you who haven’t gone down it’s rabbit hole my main problem with it is the focus of it is Gender Transformation or “Gender Swapping”. In a nutshell it involves (majority of the time) a man turning into a woman then proceeded to have sex or some sort of intercourse.
So how did I get here? Well the answer is simple. I started with Rule 63 pornography (Rule 63: any character will have art of them being the opposite sex) when I was 13, overtime I started to escalate things, I want to say it followed with POV of the females perspective, gender swapping captions & comics, to its final step of lingering between porn games. I remember that I used to make characters that would have the same body features as me (eye & hair color, height, weight, etc.). That I would acted like I was being "mind broken" or that I'd Transform myself. Overtime I had started to get lazy and started moving to femboy &/or feminine men and imagine that they were in the middle of transformation. That eventually just wore off and I just looked at it as "these are guys and I want to have sex with them".
Where did the fetish come from? I had multiple guesses, first is that I actually had a handful of times when I was a kid where I acted like I had "transformed" into a woman. Why? really because I just think it's because I was curious. I wanted to know what it felt like as a girl. Just to clarify, I'm not trans nor do I want to be trans. It also could be because I didn't exactly have a guy like childhood. The ratio for boys to girls when I was growing up was around 2:4 if not 1:4. Don't get me wrong I still did guy things, but I was pretty beat out.
Back in the winter of 2020, I had decided that I was tired of being numb to everything and I started doing Nofap. Although I haven't hit the magic number of 90 days, I've gotten better as a person. But what does this have to do with "Your Drive"? Welp, I'm talking about my drive towards relationship. All my horny life I really haven't looked at anyone and have wanted a relationship, not because I didn't like them but because porn made me happy. Now that I've majorly cut down on it there's a new hole that I want to fill. But because of porn really I haven't been attracted to anyone. Hopefully with time that'll change and I can be back to a healthy mindset. But for now I need to better myself and help others that are in the same boat as me.
My name is Buzz (Not actually), I’m 20 years old and the beast that’s been eating at me is Called Pornography Addiction & specifically it’s root fetish Transformation.
For those of you who haven’t gone down it’s rabbit hole my main problem with it is the focus of it is Gender Transformation or “Gender Swapping”. In a nutshell it involves (majority of the time) a man turning into a woman then proceeded to have sex or some sort of intercourse.
So how did I get here? Well the answer is simple. I started with Rule 63 pornography (Rule 63: any character will have art of them being the opposite sex) when I was 13, overtime I started to escalate things, I want to say it followed with POV of the females perspective, gender swapping captions & comics, to its final step of lingering between porn games. I remember that I used to make characters that would have the same body features as me (eye & hair color, height, weight, etc.). That I would acted like I was being "mind broken" or that I'd Transform myself. Overtime I had started to get lazy and started moving to femboy &/or feminine men and imagine that they were in the middle of transformation. That eventually just wore off and I just looked at it as "these are guys and I want to have sex with them".
Where did the fetish come from? I had multiple guesses, first is that I actually had a handful of times when I was a kid where I acted like I had "transformed" into a woman. Why? really because I just think it's because I was curious. I wanted to know what it felt like as a girl. Just to clarify, I'm not trans nor do I want to be trans. It also could be because I didn't exactly have a guy like childhood. The ratio for boys to girls when I was growing up was around 2:4 if not 1:4. Don't get me wrong I still did guy things, but I was pretty beat out.
Back in the winter of 2020, I had decided that I was tired of being numb to everything and I started doing Nofap. Although I haven't hit the magic number of 90 days, I've gotten better as a person. But what does this have to do with "Your Drive"? Welp, I'm talking about my drive towards relationship. All my horny life I really haven't looked at anyone and have wanted a relationship, not because I didn't like them but because porn made me happy. Now that I've majorly cut down on it there's a new hole that I want to fill. But because of porn really I haven't been attracted to anyone. Hopefully with time that'll change and I can be back to a healthy mindset. But for now I need to better myself and help others that are in the same boat as me.