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What made you realize your porn addiction

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by djdcgc4, Jun 6, 2019.

  1. Cranchy

    Cranchy Fapstronaut

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    I am even can't control myself seeing every night. How can I recover my addiction?
     
  2. 15, highschool. Observed that many others tried to stop but always for a week or less. Tried to stop and made a month, but exams came and I fell back on the cycle.

    Came here after a friend talked about Reddit. Spend some months on the reddit, made some good 4 weeks and more streaks. Then I came here. Around 16, made a 90 days and left because i wemt straight to tertiary level. Fell into a messed up pattern and came back before i turned 17. Was going well again, so I left Nofap once more. Came back the day before I turned 18 and was here every since.

    Help... was always needed, but arrogance made me believe that I could manage alone. I seeked help about a month after failing. I always seek help after failing.
     
  3. IR254

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    For me it was kind of a weird experience. I was about to start another jerking session (probably the fifth that day) and then this thought came to my mind out of the blue: "I'm jerking off a lot, don't I? I wonder what would show up if I search for 'porn addiction'." I still have no clue why I wondered about porn addiction, because I didn't even know it was a thing back then. But I googled it nevertheless and was blown away by the results. I read stories about what problems guys developed and how abstaining from porn made them go away. It was like looking in a mirror. Everything I read was like it was me. I identified with 100% of the problems. It was that moment, that I knew I had a problem with porn.

    Like three minutes. I was instantly motivated to tackle my issue and solve it. I found the forums and signed up immediatly. That was about three years ago. And I still haven't found a way out of this situation. Sometimes I'm really depressed about it, because I feel too weak. Actually my problems became worse - not better - over time due to all the relapses and escalations, which come with it. I'm not giving up though. I will find a way.
     
  4. ultrafabber

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    I am both happy for you and also extremely pissed off that i did not have this chance considering my initial experience was identical to yours. I was a teenager, i was masturbating a lot and i too search things like "is porn/masturbation healthy/bad etc".

    This happened 15 years ago or so, nofap or similar sites did not exist back then. Literally all the results i got, including links from reputable medical sites basically said masturbation/porn is perfectly normal/healthy and random other sites laughed at the idea that masturbation/porn may be unhealthy.
     
  5. SuperFan

    SuperFan Fapstronaut

    I realized I had a problem when I'd start watching porn at 8 or 9pm, and literally browse porn all night until the sun came up the next morning ... during which I'd masturbate between 5-8 times. The next day, I'd sleep in late (of course) and my whole day would be shot. I'd feel horrible about myself.

    For several years, I had a very cush job situation where I'd work one week, and then have a week off. I made enough money in that week that I didn't need to find any other work. I had a full-time income with only a part-time commitment. When I'd finish my work for the week, I'd think about all the productive, important things I was going to accomplish with my week off (I had several ambitions and dreams of building my own side hustle). Inevitably, I would almost always lose the week to porn binging. I'd finish my week off with a sad realization that I'd wasted all of that time. Essentially, that was my life for four years.

    It didn't stop there. Before long, I'd lost my virginity, even though I had a value of waiting until marriage. And then I started getting promiscuous. I started finding women to hook up with on Craigslist (this was before the days of smartphones and Tinder). I found hook-up websites and created accounts. I started getting invited to swinger parties, gangb***s, and the homes of married couples. When I found a good relationship, it would only last for a few months before I got bored and needed new sex, so I broke things off with a few wonderful women who had no idea that I had a problem. I finally got married, and in short order was cheating on my wife repeatedly. I became someone I had zero respect for.

    It wasn't until I got caught that I knew I needed help. And unfortunately, it took getting caught a few times over ... each time seeking more and more intense help, until I finally checked myself into a sex addiction rehab center in Arizona (the same place Tiger Woods went to). Today, I'm divorced, although I still--remarkably--have a good relationship with my ex and we love one another unconditionally. Porn is still an issue from time to time, but mainly my deeper problem is fantasy, masturbation, and a deep need for validation from women in the form of sexual desire. I'm a work in progress and I've gotten better at not condemning myself all the time--because that never leads anywhere positive. I've learned to be gentle with myself and to be comfortable just improving a little bit each day. I don't need to be perfect today--I just need to try and improve a little bit over where I was yesterday.
     
  6. The_Inevitable

    The_Inevitable Fapstronaut

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    Exactlyyyyy brooo many websites claim it to be healthy they really f**** us up. I have researched numerous times all claiming to be healthy. They just Fuc*** our lives
     
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  7. The_Inevitable

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    Brooo exactlyyyyy this is what am going thru Now. The hourglass thing, I also realized I lost the length. It's freaking me outttt. I've had this issue for the pass 9 month or soo. Can you please update us how are nowww
     
  8. It sucks. My penis looks like an hourglass too. Masturbation isn’t healthy at all.
     
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  9. Same
     
  10. Abel100%

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    [QUOTE = "fg4795, post: 2088573, member: 331766"] que literalmente estaba buscando algo que me repugnaba (degradación extrema pero realmente extrema) pero me masturbo debido al aburrimiento y la adicción. Traté de parar muchas veces yo mismo, pero no era lo suficientemente fuerte .. Así que decidí unirme un año después de mi primer intento de parar y por ahora la adicción a pmo está bajo control y tenía buenos sentimientos al respecto .. Y desafortunadamente no había quien porque yo ' Soy una persona realmente introvertida y la gente juzga extraño de todos modos, así que a nadie le importaba realmente [/ QUOTE]
    Ánimo Igual Yo día 14
     

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