What my addiction took.

Ever since I was a young kid all I could really remember is the incredible amount of porn I've watched through out the years. Every aspect of my life for the past 10 years has been porn or sex related and it has made thing impossible for me. The very fact I've made it this far without my life
imploding on itself is the only comfort I truly have now a days. At first it was just porn, every day, masturbating till my body parts associated with it hurt like there was no tomorrow. But as I got older and became capable of preforming sexual acts with more freedom I completely lost myself. I suffer from severe depression and anxiety from my addictions and I feel as if my life will never ever recover from all the stupid things I've done to fulfill my urges. All the mindless sex, time wasted, responsibilities I set aside to feed my sad addiction. It got worse as I became more and more depressed and soon it went hand in hand with it. I try so hard to overcome it, but every time I feel hurt or have a set back in life it always seems to be there for me and it just sends me lower and lower. I can't seem to grasp control of it and it makes me hate myself and my life to no end. I am simply at the end of my rope.