What Porn Addiction has Done

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by powerthrough16, Dec 30, 2017.

  1. powerthrough16

    powerthrough16 Fapstronaut

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    Hey fellow Fapstronauts,
    Thought I’d take some time to talk about what porn addiction has done to me. I’m 16 now, but I started watching porn at a young age (about 12 I think) and it really imprinted me. At the time, I was sort of a loner kid who was depressed and didn’t have very many friends. But there PMO and porn were, a way to escape from my problems and an open door to fantasize about what I wished I could have: girls. So, throughout the next 4 years I used PMO/porn to wipe away my problems. Hard day at school? Simple. Come home and PMO. Felt lonely and depressed and worthless? Yeah. Just PMO. Bored? PMO. It increasingly became an “answer” for everything. Instead of “helping”, it hurt me tremendously. I became even more isolated, even enslaved, by porn and masturbation. I became addicted. Meanwhile, I was completely losing my sense of self and my confidence was going down the tubes. Porn was a way to try to cover up my lack of confidence and fear of rejection, but it only ended up making me feel it more. When I didn’t know how to deal with it, I’d just PMO more. PMO and porn have contributed to me being “icy” to people, getting jealous, feeling worthless, trying too hard, giving up too easy, and so many other negative things that have destroyed me socially. I’ve lost friends because of this. Thank God I found NoFap. Right now I’m on a 12 day streak, but it’s not easy. Unlike the other streaks, this one has been tough. And the withdrawal is worse. My anxieties are doubled and my feelings of depression and fear of rejection have skyrocketed. My confidence is almost completely gone. Right now, my friends are so much more of men than me. I’ve been a coward lately. PMO and porn have done this to me. All I want is to connect with people better, but more importantly, I want to be a man. PMO has kept me away from this and now I want to attain it. I want to be a better man. But right now the urges are bad and the anxiety is bad and I have little social confidence... all because of porn and PMO. It absolutely can destroy you. It can wreck everything. But there is hope, for sure, and this site is a great way to start. I wish all of you luck.

    -powerthrough16
     
  2. Porn Killer

    Porn Killer Fapstronaut

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    Lots of people on here understand (as you are probably aware) you are not alone in this. Maybe this will help, it’s helping me, when you urges get bad, go on the offensive. Treat porn like your worse enemy. When it pulls you in punch it in the face. Get angry at porn (not at other people though). The urges may not go away right away but it may give you an extra push to not go back. Best of luck.
     
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  3. I love how you ended that on optimistic point, I think it's vital that we hold see and hold onto just a shred of hope to keep us going. I do not know how often people may say this in the forums but I think you're already successful in the fact that you're acknowledging a bad habit and are eliminating in from your life. Treat PMO as the vicious villain it is and remember you're already hurt, you're already in pain, why not get a reward from it? I also wish you the best of luck and determination in continuing your streak!
     
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  4. powerthrough16

    powerthrough16 Fapstronaut

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    Thanks man. Hope is important. Good luck to you as well

    -pt16
     
  5. powerthrough16

    powerthrough16 Fapstronaut

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    Best of luck to you too, man

    -pt16
     
  6. ac1909

    ac1909 Fapstronaut

    Ive been on nofap for almost 2 months and youre the youngest guy ive come across on here; not only that but you have awareness of your problem and a desire to change your life. I commend you for that bro, youre doikg the best thing wver and literally just in time. You have SO MUCH to live for ahead of you so many chances, you havent even begun to live yet. Im turning 20 in february and i still have a lot ahead. but dude you are doing the right thing, the younger you end this the better. you will have way more opportunities and siccess in life ifyou hit 18 with no addictions and with your conplete self controlled by yourself. man i wish i couldve been that person but you have that chance. But the road aint easy. You gotta set realistic goals for yourself, know that you will fail some times but ALWAYS get back up. With time and with all the new things you learn on here as well as personal experience, you will get through this. Set goals for yourself, achieve them, help others, start new hobvies, exercise, read, so many things that can help. You wont regret this
     

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