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WHAT THE ACTUAL F*** IS HAPPENING WITH MY LIFE?

Discussion in 'Loneliness' started by LightningBolts, Oct 10, 2017.

  1. LightningBolts

    LightningBolts Fapstronaut

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    Man the past couple of days have been fucking rough. I haven't gone through something like this since high school and that was a year and a half ago already. I am still trying to figure out how I went from feeling like I was on top of the world to literally doing anything to make me feel happy for a few minutes even if that means watching porn. I really don't even know where to start. Tbh most of it is really small stuff that I am not going to mention but there are two big factors in this that I believe is why I am so depressed right now. The first one is my dog that I have had since I was 10 years old now 20 died. This dog was everything to me. She was my protector when I was a kid. So many great memories and what sucks even more is that I never got to say goodbye to her. She past away when she was up at my cabin this past weekend and I just cant get over it. Today I knew my grandparents were coming home and it was going to be without her and I was just trying so hard to get through the day not thinking about it so I wouldn't get upset when I got home from work. On top of that I have become super sick. I am getting better today is the best I have felt in nearly a week but I am just super fucking depressed right now. Like I don't even care about fighting my temptations and its stupid because I should but yet I am so fucking depressed. There is a song by a band I listen to you've probably heard of them and the song. Its called "Its A Long Way To The Top" by ACDC. It talks about the journey one has to take just to get to the top of the world. That song has been a bit of an inspiration for me today. It gives me a little bit of hope. It tells me that you have to struggle to get to the top. Nothing comes easy. If you haven't listened to it I urge you to and listen carefully!!!! Starting tomorrow I am going to find where I was at before all of this happened. I want to be that person again feeling the most confident I have ever felt.
     
  2. Plutonium

    Plutonium Fapstronaut

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    Your dog died and you're understandably upset. It'll take you a few days to get over it.

    ... if you wanna rock 'n' roll.
     
  3. When you are hurting, never give up.
     
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  4. Francois134

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    Hey bro, I have struggled with depression my entire life and there are a few things that I can tell you that helps. I recently downloaded some audio books and got this book called "The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F ck" by Mark Manson. It might sound like something that is pretty stupid but it helped me a lot. The thing with depression is you tell yourself that there is something wrong with you and what is the natural response of your brain????It wants to fix the problem.
    My depression might be different than yours as I was born with depression (clinical depression) but I big thing you have to realise is that you are not alone. You are not the first and only person experiencing this problem. Admit to yourself that you have a problem and just try to go on with life. Don't try to fight it. All things have their ways of getting sorted out and its just one of those things that take time.
    If you need any support you can talk to me about any problems.
    I'm pretty new to NoFap but I have realised that fapping causes a lot of confidence issues. Basically, if you PMO your brain gets overloaded with dopamine and you start to realise it's an easy way to feel good. This is not a good thing because it teaches you that good things come easily, sadly they don't. Just push through the storm because all plants need water to grow.
    If you get the urge to relapse just push through it because that urge will go away.
    Goodluck <3
     
  5. meanbean70

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    Man i think a lot of us here can relate to your problem. Sorry your dog died. My dog died last year and it was heartbreaking so i know how you feel. In times like this I would like to think about how i would feel five years from now about my current situation. Remember that one day, all this will be in the past and you will be able to live your life without the weight you have now.
     
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  6. Runtilmylegsdropoff

    Runtilmylegsdropoff Fapstronaut

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    I thought I was suffering from Depression but it was really brain fog due to excessive fapping. I cut that out and life is way better now.
     
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  7. LightningBolts

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    Thanks bro!
     

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