Hello all. It's my first day here, my first day w/o PMO, and I'm scared to death over what is happening to me. My story goes something like this: I have a very high libido,and my fiancee has a much lower one. We were making love an average of once per week which would be my definition an absolute minimum. The connection that we would have was incredible, passionate, tender, wonderful - except it wasn't happenening with any great frequency. We had many conversations on how to increase the frequency of our relations but she really has a very low libido that just wouldn't budge. Of course it would be really innapropriate for me to pressure herin any way. My solution? "Hey, whenever I'm horny and she isn't in the mood I'll just masturbate." Not a bad plan on paper. Over the past yearI have noticed some degree of ED. I'm 50 years old so some of that may be due to the normal ageing process...but I also was observing that I was feeling less and less connected with my fiancee when we would make love. I felt disconnected from her, my experience of the pleasure seemed diminished, and the whole act had somehow become robotic, like I was just going through the motions. And I was masturbating more and more, and getting very focused on certain genres of porn that involved force. That is not like me. So here I am, day one w/o PMO. So is this whole reboot process to basically let my body and mind and pleasure circuits back to normal? I get the whole no PMO, but what do I tell her? Believe me, if she initiates our usual weekly lovemaking session and I say no she is going to know that something is wrong. Am I allowed to have sex with my fiancee? Gah! Confused... Anyways, any help would be greatly appreciated.