What the hell is wrong with me?

Hi, this is my first post on here (on this account) [excuse my english]

I was addicted to PMO ever since I was 11, the problem was sometimes bigger sometimes smaller, it doesnt matter, all porn is disgusting and all porn is a pipe line that leads to worse and worse stuff, you can see it in a matter of days.

But recently it got much worse; I used to jerk off to porn twice a week max just a month ago and I usually did it once a week, it was still frustrating considering my biggest streak was 120 days, felt down and I came across someone's advice that jerking off itself isnt a problem but watching porn is.

It made some sense to me, after all no matter how I tried I couldn't abstain from jerking off forever, Im 19 now and the habit stayed with me this whole time, so perhaps I can jerk off only when I really feel like it, to my imagination, and wire my brain back on track?

I have to say it worked wonders at first, masturbation without porn felt 100x less shameful and I didnt feel like my brain is rotting; but unfortunately it got worse:
at first I did it once a week, then twice, then thrice (yes, I actually did jerk off more without porn than I did with it for the past couple of years [perhaps because I didnt hold back myself anymore, perhaps it was more satisfying for my brain])

Some time after, this sunday, I stumbled across porn again, and the moment I did I felt such a dopamine rush that I just relapsed, could have ended on that but no, since sunday, I jerked off everyday, everytime to porn, today I jerked off two time sjust like I said; even though I really didnt feel like masturbating, porn tied my hands, made me a slave, and suddenly I jerk off as much as I did in middle school.

So here's my question: is there any way I can stop this? I didnt expect it to go so bad so fast, I thought that once I drain my balls completely I will stop, but here I am after a 7 day session, just 30 minutes ago I was still willing to watch it again.

Any help is appreciated

 

Thanks for the advice even though I had to use Google Translate