What to do with the time in my head

I can't keep my mind inactive for long. My record with practice is 8 seconds. Then, it acts like a pc infected by virus. The media player will start playing a random song. I will shut it down. Then, it will open a random image that I don't know if it even exists. I will close the window. Then, it will play a random nonsense video and so on. I believe it's related to introversion and depression...

 

If you're busy enough with work, relationships, investing time in others in actuality..like family, and errands and hobbies..and making plans with friends, listening to audio books/podcasts, or reading a book..then you will have enough to think about. you can think about what might happen in your book when you have a break at work..and what to cook or eat afterwards...chores..down time.

 

Sounds like schizophrenia...

 

I didn't say you're crazy. I'm not a doctor, I don't know you. I said that this is one thing that people with schizophrenia deal with. They hear voices that tell them that they are losers, they are in danger, etc. No bad intentions.

 

Great, should start then.. video games and tv are good ideas as well. My brother often listens to audio books while in the dark laying in bed.. I know you need to keep one ear open for the kids..just pop an ear bud off and try it..you can fall asleep listening to it and turn it off when you finally wake up or set a timer for when it turns off.

Btw, I'm sorry she's upset with you..look on the brighter side though atleast she is still with you.. and time usually helps things..also communication.

I think you're just feeling bad for whatevers going on..

 

Theres a different between actually hearing a voice that isnt your own in your head that tells you to do dangerous stuff sometimes..than having low self esteem or feeling bad about oneself and thinking to oneself (which can also be telling oneself) that they are a loser or piece of trash...

 

This is what I understood.

 

My bad.

 

I'd probably one day build like a no-PMO activity prescription

- No TV, ditch the cable; no games unless they are board games or family games (Mario stuff); no Netflix
- Delete ALL social media; no ifs, no buts! You don't need it.
- Go read in the park, not at home; take your bicycle with you and use it
- Go for long walks in parks, towns or nature alone
- Take the kids with you for walks and talk to them as with adults, talk about life with them (how old are your kids, roughy, if I may?)
- Once you feel more confident (after walks and cycling for a while), go to the gym and pump some iron - barbells are your best friends there
- Don't use the gym for aerobic exercise, nature does wonders for you when it comes to aerobic exercise (I read and cycle on river sides and in forests)

In a nutshell, get your ass and brain out of any couch and any screen.

 

all the things that used to please you before PMO, Idk for example reading, writing, watching documentaries or films. Do something which give you pleasure bc you need it since you're avoiding PMO that used to be your source of pleasure.
And since I've been dealing with low-esteem too, my advice is to do something that will make you feel worthy, for me it works. I've been always dealing with problems with my aspect so I started working out in the free time and got some result, this motivated me to workout harder and I got even better results, by now I do nearly a professional workout and I want to keep on improving since I built a positive circle of habits. I think you should build yours, Idk maybe you can take an online course to improve your position at work, and that will lead you to feel proud that will lead your wife to feel proud of you, that can help you to overcome your problem with her that will lead to finally be happy and proud of yourself

Most important remember to never give up my friend, a champion is only a loser that got up one time more

 

Try to learn something new, something you might have wanted in the past and that you considerer too old to learn... That helps me a lot. A new language, a new way of art, new sport, or even perfectionate something you already knew. Keeping yourself motivated is the best thing you can do.