What was the one event in your life that's wrecked you since?

When I attempted suicide in early 2008. I tried to overdose on anti-depressants. I was going through a really dark time and I hope that I won't walk down that path again. I don't think about suicide that often anymore, but I used to desire to die (almost every day). I know that if I were to die by suicide, it would hurt my friends and family and they don't deserve to have to go through that.

I now believe that life is a precious gift and it would be tragic to waste it by killing myself. There are good people in this world that want me to recover-- it's not totally bad.

 

I’d have to say that discovering nofap has created a permanent shift in my mindset. It’s been over 2 years and I can honestly say that my life has not been the same. I think that nofap may have triggered a midlife crisis for me.

 

I have one event which fucked me up,but i recovered without trauma.
When i was a kid,i i known one man he was 50 years old back then.He was kind,respectful and ready to help you.He have known my father from school.He call me to come to his house,so i did.And i made a big mistake!Yes he was kind and respectful but he was a pedophile.He have hided his real personality and put me in the trap.When i enter to his house he just tell me put you pants down.I was just a kid i didn't know what to do.First he beat me up and start to push his finger in my ass.I was full of fear and i hit him in head with fist and i run away.I was in trauma for whole year,what a monster.