For me it used to be not healing from PIED. But over the last while I do believe I have almost healed from PIED. But these days when I relapse the most thing that upsets me is not being able to control my self, and I worry I will never be able to control my self to the point this is completely going to be out my life for good. I just feel like I will always eventually relapse. Another thing that worries me is how many relapses until the PIED starts to get bad again? How many relapses until the porn has more control over me again? I think what has happened to me recently is I am not as worried about relapsing anywhere near as much, because like I said the PIED does seem to be almost cured. I am just worried I am going to go back the way again.