Liudger
Fapstronaut
Hello everyone!
here is a little story I just felt like sharing, maybe its useful [?].
I've been addicted for 16 years. My brain is super-wired for addiction. I play videogames till I fall asleep at 3 in the morning. If I had ever started smoking, drinking or gambling or taking drugs I think I would never been able to shake that.
Anyways, a couple years ago the PMO addiction took over my life so badly that I basically watched all day long. While in Home Office. While logged into the Work Internet. They banned my broweser for a couple days. Its almost a joke really from a bad movie. Ive already lost money and friends to the PMO but this was a new low, I was outright suicidal.
Save to say, it did shake me up pretty good though and I got clean for over 200 days. I remember I felt good, the world had colour again, I could walk upright, achieved levitation, all of that.
BUT of course at some point I got weak again, didnt keep up my new routines, didnt progress and so I failed my streak. Things even got worse. I thought I was over the most stupid excess of the PMO addiction. Boy was I wrong. Again, same thing happened, this time I shared the screen via zoom and there you go.. last porn session was still open. Amazing. I dont even know, whether my coworker actually saw it, if so, he chose to ignore it. Its very interesting that everyone looks down on people who happen to show porn on the screen by accident and dont get me wrong its a stupid thing
What puzzles me most is the stupidity in all of it. I have a degree, work experience, im 33, worked abroad etc etc. and then this happens to me twice.
As I said, its a farce really, maybe you can laugh about it too.
Ok. Now onto a new streak that will last till I die of old age.
here is a little story I just felt like sharing, maybe its useful [?].
I've been addicted for 16 years. My brain is super-wired for addiction. I play videogames till I fall asleep at 3 in the morning. If I had ever started smoking, drinking or gambling or taking drugs I think I would never been able to shake that.
Anyways, a couple years ago the PMO addiction took over my life so badly that I basically watched all day long. While in Home Office. While logged into the Work Internet. They banned my broweser for a couple days. Its almost a joke really from a bad movie. Ive already lost money and friends to the PMO but this was a new low, I was outright suicidal.
Save to say, it did shake me up pretty good though and I got clean for over 200 days. I remember I felt good, the world had colour again, I could walk upright, achieved levitation, all of that.
BUT of course at some point I got weak again, didnt keep up my new routines, didnt progress and so I failed my streak. Things even got worse. I thought I was over the most stupid excess of the PMO addiction. Boy was I wrong. Again, same thing happened, this time I shared the screen via zoom and there you go.. last porn session was still open. Amazing. I dont even know, whether my coworker actually saw it, if so, he chose to ignore it. Its very interesting that everyone looks down on people who happen to show porn on the screen by accident and dont get me wrong its a stupid thing
What puzzles me most is the stupidity in all of it. I have a degree, work experience, im 33, worked abroad etc etc. and then this happens to me twice.
As I said, its a farce really, maybe you can laugh about it too.
Ok. Now onto a new streak that will last till I die of old age.
