After a busy routine in the last few days, I got time to peek into my Nofap account which utterly changed my life. I was astonished after I realized that I m on the 40th day of my hard mode challenge! I can still remember the thoughts that I had when I was started my journey and I love to share everything with you that I faced throughout my journey. I didn't have any purpose in my life and I always suffered about my past either worried about my future. My mind was filled with anxiety and negativity, which always makes me feels like a '' FAILURE''. I used to live in a certain frame and I didn't try to escape it. I realized that my life is in the same pose without moving forward, so I strongly believed that I should impose my own terms on my life to ''CHANGE''. But to be honest I was afraid to be changed! As apart of my first step, I thought I should give up on my greatest addiction on pornography and masturbation. which always gave me an empty feeling and kept me so far away from the reality. So I joined this community on the 24th of Jun 2020 and engaged my self on the HARD MODE challenge. I strictly convinced my self that if I want to change any point of my life I need enough strength to put my great effort on it. My mind didn't believe that whether I would get positive consequences, and it always forced my self to ''GIVE UP''. The first days were the hardest days which I felt like a lonely and stressful than ever before. Because it's not easy as it seems to stop an addiction that we were used to do from many years. after the first 2 weeks, I gradually overcome my fears, anxiety, depression, and brain fog without any self intervention. I have been started to grateful for every single thing that i ever deserved in my life . Everyday i starts my daywith enthusiasm and gratitude. I started to love my self than anything else in this world and every day I continue to choose me! I accepted every good and bad situations in my life and handled them so nicely than I have done before. I m not praying for easy life anymore but I m praying for strength to endure difficult one. Because what I believe is sometimes we have to die a little inside to reborn and become the best version of ourselves! GOOD LUCK FOR YOU ALL!