WHEN WILL I CHANGE?

When will I change? When will I learn my lesson from this addiction? I mean think about how much pain, stress, anxiety, time, energy etc Ive spent on this addiction. It all adds up. Ive wasted so much of my life because I gave into the lies that I put inside my mind. The lie that I am never going to find that special someone. The lie that I will never finish losing weight. The lie that God doesnt forgive me. The lie that porn is real. The lie that I am worthless.

I am tired of writting about how sick and tired I am about this addiction. If I am truely sick and tired of this addiction I would have defeated it by now. I try not to be hard on myself but its true. Youd especially think that by now with everything that has happened to me this year because of this addiction that Id learn. I got such a great future ahead of me. I want to be a better person but somehow I cant get passed day 7. Earlier this year I was doing great I made it to l Iike day 70. I gotta find something. Some way to get back into it. I need to take my life back.

If you have been in my shoes and have been able to create a long streak please feel free to leave a comment. I need to know that I can get back on track. I need some positivity.

 

Amen to that!