Where do I fit?

Maybe take time to break down the real issues that you face, maybe somethings such as alcoholism or PMO are not the real issues so if you identify the core or root problems and start solving them, for example loneliness and its cause, unemployment and its cause, etc, you can gradually address other issues such as directional anxiety, start with the small things maybe, change what you can and see what happens

 

Maybe try changing your job? There is a meetup app where you can meet other people in your area at events. Maybe join an mma gym? Try challenging your directional anxiety by traveling or taking a long drive in your car with gps. Sometimes I would drive purposely to get myself lost, and then I would use gps to get home. Weird? Yes! Fun? Sometimes.

I’m 34 yrs old and I’ve already made a pact with myself that if I’m to remain single then my goal is to travel until I die and to spend my life meeting people from all walks with of life.

 

Directional Anxiety. I'd never put a name to that before. I just thought I got anxiety from everything. But can feel your pain on that one. Getting in the car always makes me anxious, but having to go somewhere new I hate. I feel like such a fool. But Google maps really helps. My partner thinks I'm just rubbish at getting around with no sense of direction and finds it funny that I still don't know the way to places I've been to many times. It does sound like you need something more positive to give you a lift out of where you are now. I don't know what that is but change can be a big help, even if it seems very difficult. "If you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always got." Heard that somewhere, makes sense to me, so I change, even little things can make a difference.