Where the benefits are going?

The time line of benefits is what you decide. Use that new energy to create them! Choose a goal, have an aim to work for. Anything. Achieve it and pick another.
I experience anxiety, I am trying to change my perception of it and see it as the feeling of choice, even though it can be overwhelming. Pmo is like putting blinders on yourself, you only see a small part of reality. Removing them lets me see the whole world of options that I have. Its freedom, and that too can be scary, overwhelming number of life options and choices to make.