ForABetterLife20
Fapstronaut
Brief rundown of my struggles with rebooting.
January 2016: Decided to first try and leave porn behind, join NoFap soon afterward. Got and kept an honest PMO spreadsheet (super helpful) I was able to greatly decrease the number of my PMO's over the course of the year, but I couldn't leave it behind
September 2016: Captain on soccer team for my senior year of high school, relapsing severely affected my ability to perform at a high level. All of a sudden I stopped. It was as easy as finding a strict regimen by which to live!
September 2016-December 2017: PMO'd probably 6 times in that ENTIRE span.
Christmas Break 2017: PMO a few times. Not a good way to start the year.
January 2018-May 2018: Did pretty well, a PMO here or there, probably only 1 or 2 in that span.
May 2018: I fell deeply back into fetish porn and PMO'ing a few times a week during my finals week freshman year in college.
I've basically been there since then, with my longest streak being a week? Maybe? I've also failed to keep track on my spreadsheet, which really detracts from my ability to reboot successfully.
I need to stop. For the sake of my girlfriend, my studies, my future, my housemates, my friends, my family, my spiritual life, my physical development. The list goes on and on. I know intellectually what I need to do to stop watching porn and PMO'ing, but I just don't do it. I marvel at the person I was in high school in that respect. It just wasn't a part of his life. That guy built a life around things not PMO. It has now seeped back into my life.
Any tips that strike you would be greatly greatly appreciated.
January 2016: Decided to first try and leave porn behind, join NoFap soon afterward. Got and kept an honest PMO spreadsheet (super helpful) I was able to greatly decrease the number of my PMO's over the course of the year, but I couldn't leave it behind
September 2016: Captain on soccer team for my senior year of high school, relapsing severely affected my ability to perform at a high level. All of a sudden I stopped. It was as easy as finding a strict regimen by which to live!
September 2016-December 2017: PMO'd probably 6 times in that ENTIRE span.
Christmas Break 2017: PMO a few times. Not a good way to start the year.
January 2018-May 2018: Did pretty well, a PMO here or there, probably only 1 or 2 in that span.
May 2018: I fell deeply back into fetish porn and PMO'ing a few times a week during my finals week freshman year in college.
I've basically been there since then, with my longest streak being a week? Maybe? I've also failed to keep track on my spreadsheet, which really detracts from my ability to reboot successfully.
I need to stop. For the sake of my girlfriend, my studies, my future, my housemates, my friends, my family, my spiritual life, my physical development. The list goes on and on. I know intellectually what I need to do to stop watching porn and PMO'ing, but I just don't do it. I marvel at the person I was in high school in that respect. It just wasn't a part of his life. That guy built a life around things not PMO. It has now seeped back into my life.
Any tips that strike you would be greatly greatly appreciated.
